EP 57: I Think Knot by Sinclair Kelly

well hello All You Beautiful

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People you know what time it

is ladies and gents Guys and Dolls and

everyone in

between gather around get you something

real nice to sip on and comfy to slip

on cuz it's time for smut Club here's

your hosts Chelsey and

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Hannah podcast initiated like a genie

and on that note hey everybody Welcome

to smut club I'm Hannah and I am Chelsea

and this is the podcast where we

sometimes Day drink sometimes don't and

review trashy romance novels we're two

licensed therapists and we used to

bother our co-workers because we just

sit on work links and talk about these

books all and then one of them was like

that girl just took four dicks this is

what you guys are talking about on the

worklink and I was like oh God yeah who

maybe we should find another Outlet

that's a little bit better and we did

and alas here we are we did yes so

today we are reviewing I think not not

is k n o t by Sinclair Kelly this is the

first book that we are reviewing that is

like an Omega verse B

and I have some omega verse questions

cuz I'm not really I don't know a lot

about the Omega verse I have some

Anatomy questions we're going to get to

at some point I've read some omega verse

like I've read a few yeah but I still

don't know that I have the answers but

we'll explore together I'm just going to

tell you now I don't think you have the

answers and that's not anything about

you as a person I think I just realized

my questions are are very

specific um but you do have answers to a

lot of other questions I do yeah I have

a lot of useless stuff up here that

makes me fun at parties and good at

trivia and that's about it yeah I think

um my co-workers have started to realize

I the only trivia that I know far too

much of is just like movies pop like

actors I am unfortunately that person

that you'll like

I was watching a movie with my husband

that came on I was like oh that dude

played a rapist on season 3 of Veronica

Mars I do the same thing and Vance was

like and I'm sure that's what he loves

to be known

for he hasn't grown at all in his career

he's in a new movie no he's still

forever going to be that guy this show

that dropped 20 years ago oh my God has

it really been 20 years close too wasn't

it like oh oh four yeah probably

probably okay but Veronica Mars is not

in the Omega verse I do have a lot of

strong opinions about Veronica Mars as

well I know you do

yeah not in a bad way but I know you do

it's true yeah listen I'm just a fan of

the franchise which I appreciate yeah

yeah we all need people to back us and

rep us so this is a Veronica Mars piece

of trivia that is useless and I doubt

anyone would ever ask because I don't

remember which season it was I don't

remember at all but I do remember that

on one season of America's Next Top

Model they had of the prize Naima thank

you yes I knew it was Naima but I didn't

know which season where the prize was to

be a receptionist and have one line

on there were two that one wasn't Naima

that one was a front desk girl Naima

played the school teacher in the bus

crap so who was the it doesn't matter it

I don't remember her name I do there

were two

prizes that's right there were two there

were two prizes back in the Heyday of

America's Next Top Model okay true story

this was back um like I was in Middle

School High School Wednesday night youth

group sort of energy and this was also

back before on demand TV you had to DVR

something if you were not going to be

there to watch it and DVR was still

probably fairly new and everybody had it

EXA

yeah so my sister and I start passing

notes to each other during the lesson at

youth grouping like did you set the DVR

for America's Next Stop model she's like

no did you set it and I was like I don't

know if I did and we like both look at

each other and without we just like went

one two three like showed our fingers

got up ran out of the youth group and

drove home to make sure it was set to

record and I would like to formally

apologize to Dave who was speaking that

night cuz it had nothing to do with you

bless Dave but honestly I respect that

energy so

much America TCH stop model really felt

that important like did it did yeah

which is also wild to look back at the

things that they would do to alter their

appearances oh I know I saw a tweet the

other day that said um if you were a

pre-teen teen watching America's Next

Top Model you may be entitled to

Financial compens

ation didn't they put a gap in a girl's

teeth

once they might have I know there was

one that had a gap that they refused to

fix like she asked them to and they said

no um maybe that's what I'm thinking

there were a few girls that like they

shaved their heads and they didn't want

that and stuff like that it's

icky and there was like no consent it

was literally it was like if you do not

agree to this you clearly don't want to

be a model you can't be in the

industry if you don't let us shave your

head and bleach it and then after once

they would they' be like do you see how

much more Fierce you look and I'm like I

don't Fierce is not the word I would use

but it's just me no and my sister who's

a hair stylist tried to convince me to

like go pixie for a very very long time

and then I realized I think the problem

is I don't wear a lot of makeup I don't

wear a lot of jewelry I don't do a lot

of things to like

J yeah

t and I was like I I really don't think

this is going to land how you think it's

going to land because I'm the one who's

going to have to like suddenly start

wearing a full face of makeup every day

and I don't want you to shave my head or

give me a like that tight of a pixie

enough that I'm willing to start wearing

more makeup every day unless you're also

going to teach me how to wear more

makeup because I'm not I know not

skilled enough I know what what I know

I understand my own scope and with that

the Omega verse is is a VIN diagram I

would say of scope like there's a little

bit in there there's a little bit

overlap between my knowledge and the

Omega verse but it is not a

circle not a

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circle sorry I'm just saying yeah I

okay okay we can get yourself together

Chelsea you're good so prologue we're

starting two years ago we meet Bexley

she is

the Vexy Bexley beex b e x l e y I don't

know if that's better or worse carry on

Bexley I feel like it's better Vexy Vexy

or

Bexley beex is a better nickname than

Vex I think so

well I'm not going to get stuck on it no

vex feels like you're getting a far more

Sinister character yes that's true

Beckle feels like you're getting like a

little more innocence with it yeah like

fun quirky just and I really like Bexley

okay um there are like some moments that

like she annoys me as happen in most

books but like thoroughly I enjoyed her

but we start two years ago and um Bexley

is sitting with her best friend ardan

ardan um was mated had a pack um with

three alphas and had a son they had

taken their son to the movies to have to

give her a little mommy day and died in

a car accident oh no yes and Bexley

watching ardan go through the pain of

losing her mates of losing her like just

really reinforced like she's like I

don't care that I'm an Omega MH I don't

want to be claimed this ain't it's not

really worth the pain that I'm seeing

can happen with with it um and so that's

where 2 years ago we start so as this

book starts

um we have Bexley and ardan obviously

and they have really taken the the pain

and Trauma that ardan was going through

and we're trying to give her an outlet

so they started what it it's it's on

pack chat which is essentially Tik Tok

or Instagram they're posting reals

they're po like is what they're doing um

and so she is an Omega influencer now

and her Channel's called like the

omega's guide and so it's very uh

Forward Thinking in the Omega community

and is very like you don't have to give

into your designation like you can you

can live whatever life you want and just

kind of giving people that freedom and

they have become very very popular they

have like 20

million viewers wow subscribers however

people who follow

them um but whenever

Bexley is posting a video and posting

new

content within 30 minutes it's getting

dueted by this pack uh and their name is

Ryden Alpha and they're these guys and

she's like they're just these like

[ __ ] like country good old boys that

are just

like trolling all of her content but

their whole thing is they're like we

want to Omega like what's so great about

like being inde like look at all you

could have if you decide to like give

into your Des is kind of their like

energy yeah yeah um and so that pack as

you've probably guessed is where we're

we're going to be ending up and so in

the videos um you have

crew

axon Axton is actually a beta okay but

he's mated to Shaw who's an alpha okay

okay so the I'm I'm sorry the alphas

crew Shaw Hawk

okay and then axon is the beta who is

with sha got it okay yes um and they've

all like been together for years and

years and years so they've been

searching for their Omega that's going

to like complete their pack for a long

time yes they very much want that that

missing piece um there is we'll we'll

meet a character in a little bit that

was a female that had previously been

engaging with their pack and all that

good

stuff so we're g to switch to axton's

perspective we're gon to switch

perspectives a lot throughout sometimes

it matters sometimes it really [ __ ]

doesn't if I'm being honest I like it

when it switches a lot though because I

feel like it keeps it fresh like I just

finished a book where it was just her

point of view it was um signs of

cupidity oh yeah oh yeah um and I really

enjoyed the story but it was all her

point of view and it got stale towards

the end well and so I didn't go right

into the next one I'm sure I'll pick the

series back up but it's funny that you

say that cuz I was just reading a Megan

Quinn book and got super annoyed because

like the first chapter it starts it has

the female leads name every chapter is

the main character there is one chapter

no that is the other love interest I was

like why are you putting her name at the

start of like we get it it it's m like I

understand like you made me think it was

not going to be this and so I keep like

and I know that there are some books

where

you might have several chapters before

you switch points of view right so I

think that's what I was anticipating and

I'm like well I'm [ __ ] 30 chapters

deep and we're still on home girl why

did we even bother putting her name at

the start of each

chapter that would irritate me a lot

yeah just to have the one chapter for

the other for the dude I'll even like

skip ahead sometime so I can see like

when the next perspective change comes

and I well I really appreciate when I'm

on my Kindle and they have it linked to

chapter so be like chapter chapter one

Bexley chapter 2 axon I'm like yes thank

you this

helps we are the same I was about to say

yep yep probably the fact that we are

born a day apart a day apart and in very

close geographical proximity as

well it's so [ __ ] wild when I think

I'm like what are the chances we've L

very parallel lives for only like

meeting when we were like 30 yeah we

have yeah so wild okay so we're

switching to Axton um he is just

incessantly watching bexley's videos and

they're all like checking just like oh

like did she respond but like also like

they're they're very intubating her even

if she is their enemy right if you will

for them it's like a fun flirty thing

yeah like they're getting off on it a

little bit I think a little bit like I

think like they are frustrated with her

at this point and it like has built and

grown but I also think they're all into

her and they did start their channel to

try and find an Omega and try and be

like look at all we have to offer um

then maybe don't call your channel ride

an

alpha why why wouldn't you change they

they're making their needs

known well I'm

saying as discussed with our

conversation before we started recording

with couple to thruple there's a

difference between a

casual people who are looking for an

actual person to join them versus

looking for a good time right and Ry in

Alpha to me says good time Bros not like

yeah I'll say every single username that

they mention in this entire book

everyone is witty everyone has like a

I'm like kudos to Sinclair Kelly for

really having that wit but I'm like

let's be real most of the time it's like

Chelsea fight 70 3 is the username like

they're not all that great they're not

but to their credit they have also built

a huge following and a huge audience and

this is kind of their livelihood as well

and I don't think they have quite as

many followers but they're like close

behind Bexley in that regard um but also

whenever they kind of like post these

taunting and baiting responses she has a

very large fan base who would like they

get some backlash for it right so

they're like okay well like maybe like

we should like start adjusting and

shifting so there is

um a convention coming up it's like pack

chat it's like an influencer convention

and so oh there's a other person not

formally pack axon has a twin brother

Camden Camden his designation is not

clear it has never fully presented so

he's just kind of been living in this

like unknown space and so like he's

never really joined the pack yeah but

like he and Hawk have always like had a

flirty thing yeah like everyone can tell

that like there's something between them

but they've never pursued it or or

anything like that he just kind of lives

like on the fringes of the pack but it's

still close with him because his twin

brother is in there right got it so

Camden comes in and he's like hey guys I

have an idea since we're doing the

keynote at this like influencer

convention situation why don't we invite

Bexley to to join us and like sign of

Goodwill it's also great for Num like

lots of positives right like let's see

if she she takes the bait and takes the

invitation do you have any questions

thus far I feel like I'm just doing all

setup so there's like no real questions

I'm tracking all the

way that's great because sometimes I'm

like am I communicating as clearly as I

think and right now I did feel like I

was communicating clearly you were doing

a great job and still are thank you for

checking in

okay I felt the therapist

voice in the other day I was talking to

somebody and I heard it and I was like

oh I don't like

it wait what somebody was I was very

irritated with someone and I slipped

into therapist voice because I was

trying to be professional and not like

take out my earrings about it and I

heard it and I was like GH but that was

my only like defense against just like

full so one of my favorite things about

Hannah is when she gets pissed off and

just like start sounding off about it

and I also want to note when we worked

together we worked for a nationwide

company like there are like

locations in 40 plus States and we would

be assisting people who lived in all of

these these states and all of these

employees and I just remember being on

links with Hannah and she's like Chelsea

you want to get in the car and go to

Colorado they're going to catch these

hands I'm like okay slow your roll we'll

probably calm down before we make it to

up on the way like we both live in

Georgia we got this we're going to

Colorado the number of times that Hannah

was like they're going to catch these

hands I was like okay sit

down as you sit in North

Georgia in your husband's boxers in an

oversized t-shirt you're like we're

really going

to we're really intimidating I get spicy

sometimes yeah I I got spicy on Thursday

at work and I like FaceTime my husband

and I was like can I send this

email and it's so interesting because my

husband goes respectfully Chelsea your

email's not that spicy you only think

it's spicy because you're a woman if a

man in the corporate world were to send

that email they would not think twice

about it like you are being direct you

are setting a like boundary in clear

communication and then I talked to two

of my female co-workers and they're like

ooh the spice's hat today and I'm like

oh is it my

bad I get it I literally typed an email

that I was like per the CEO's email

below because somebody asked a very

stupid question and then I like deleted

it yes thank you so much for

checking it's on the same chain just

scroll

down but you know what I'm going to call

that growth thank you I've been trying

yeah you weren't like I'm going to take

my earrings out over this [ __ ] you're

just like oh great clarifying question

yes that is what we're doing which is

even better because my ears aren't even

pierced but I say that [ __ ] all the

time I never even realized that oh my

God you've been saying that for years

and you don't have pierced

Years anyway okay so we're going to be

in this book yeah Forever at the

convention we're not quite at the

convention yet but to but to get us to

the convention we switch back to Bexley

like and ardan's like Do It Go like yeah

let's see they're going to bring their

two friends who are betas um as backup

Jackson and lock um and while

Beckley ardan Jackson and lock are not

pack they kind of operate as such they

are best friends and they don't really

have anyone else they are each other's

family and Community but they they're

like okay well like you could go but

like should you like try using a scent

blocker or something and like bexley's

like remember the last time I tried to

use a scent blocker and I had an

allergic reaction like no let's not risk

it CU it would look worse if she pulled

out because she was sick and then they

were like oh she's sick right yeah like

just all of those sorts of thoughts and

so now but now we're going to switch to

uh the

username hash one number one Bexley fan

is yes so that is the uh point of view

we get that's not pack or Bexley it is

her stalker I was going to say sounds

like a stalker we love a good stalker

book we love a stalker Trope we do we

we do when JS Scott does I was about to

say if they are the dearest stalker

perhaps that's the reason just because

we we love JS Scott even while we hate

to read it [ __ ]

Jan Jan we miss you we love you I'll

find one to review of you soon it's been

a moment to say yeah we may have to

revisit Jan yes um so we switch to the

stalker who's like he sees that they've

they've posted a video inviting her to

join them

and so he's just like refreshing her

page every like 2 minutes being like is

she is she going is like what's what's

the plan is she going to accept their

invite um and as soon as he sees that

she accepts their request he's like oh

okay I'm going to like buy a ticket to

go to the convention and uh to save her

from them oh yeah sure she needs saving

obviously you get it yeah she's really

struggling so now we are at the

convention and we're at the Green Green

Room her friends are telling her to stay

put there like there are so many scents

it is very like lots of alphas just like

super overwhelming yes um and we also

kind of learned like while Bexley is a

very successful Channel she stays pretty

isolated um and like she even talks to

ardan about like her former Heats how

like she's just kind of denied them um

which isn't great biologically for that

doesn't sound healthy and safe yes um

and so I think that's also why they

wanted her to stay the room they're like

you've denied your last several Heats

which like isn't really healthy the

smells are going to be even more potent

and overwhelming for you and so just

stay back

here and even like it's either Jackson

or lock I don't remember which one but

one of them's like oh yeah like one of

them like put you might put you into an

early heat and she's like shut the [ __ ]

up like this is ridiculous right so

there's a knock on the door um and when

I opened she's like axen and he's like

I'm Camden and she's like oh didn't know

that there was a twin here so Camden was

is coming with the mic to clip her and

get her all set up and as soon as she

walks in he's like she's like he smells

incredible he has like this like Alpha

scent wafting off of him and they just

like it's just them in the room at this

point and they just like start making

out very intense make out session nice

but like Camden's into it but is also

like what is happening I've never had a

designation before right

and it's just a a little confused within

that so either one of bexley's friends

returns doesn't really matter who let's

be honest right right and Cameron's like

okay I don't I'm I'm gonna leave now

anyway you're miked up congratulations

bye just just put it on your shirt

here's the Mike you can do this

right um and then one of them also comes

in with a giant bouquet of pink roses

which are bexley's favorite with a note

that says I'm here for you love your

number one Bexley fan yikes yeah not

ideal we are now going to switch back to

Camden Camden walks into the dude's

green room and all the guys are like

where have you been for a minute but

then all of them suddenly smell her

apparently she smells like sugar cookies

all veryy into the cookie smell at one

point they're like smells like [ __ ]

snicker doodles like yeah she has a

strong sugar cookie odor about her that

is her sent

as an

Omega okay in one of the motorcycle

romances I read recently there was a

strip club called cookies and one of the

girls just continuously referred to her

lady bits as cookie and so now it tracks

I mean it's very I thought of that yeah

the entire time that they were like her

sugar cookie I'm like oh heo not her

scent yeah I felt the same

H strip clubs I just love the names of

random ones it's always fascinating in

the same book there was another strip

club called The Glass Slipper that was

oh less classy

apparently there's no telling the glass

slipper was less classy than cookie than

cookie yeah if I'm remembering right

probably both still classier than the

one we've talked about by my parents

house before called the fuzzy hole heyo

shout out

I would probably rather go to a place

called The Glass Slipper than the fuzzy

hole if I'm going on name

alone right so all of the dudes like get

a whiff of Camden and are like oh my God

like this this is a great smell that is

on you and then he Al he's also like

yeah I kissed her and they're like wait

like what the [ __ ] and then like crew is

like why did you kiss our number one

enemy and Camden just like growls at him

and all of them are

like this isn't the normal you this is

what is this like Alpha so she like woke

up his designation basically yes but

then Camden internally is like my

designation feels fluid like like he can

like step into that but is not

necessarily full Alpha interesting okay

um because you can also see like Hawk's

a little disappointed when he like finds

out that like he's like oh well he's an

alpha and I'm an alpha so that like

that'll never work

yeah

um what else happens there oh crew just

is trying to be like okay everyone don't

forget she is off limits like we're here

we're like this is a business

Arrangement we're trying to make this

happen pants on yeah and he's like get

everyone's [ __ ] together she is off

limits and the enemy so is he like the

deao leader yeah a little bit um but

Camden's like they are all idiots they

all just like were obsessed with her

scent on me he's like I'm pursuing this

regardless like let those schols do what

they want I'm not in their pack I'm

pursuing

Bexley so switching to Cruz perspective

now they get on stage and he's like

still in his head like yeah like this is

for business and like got to hold these

boundaries and like blah blah blah blah

blah and then as they're walking on on

stage Bexley like trips and falls into

his arms and it's like instant

connection and I think that's the best

and worst part about the few Omega verse

books I've read is they're just like and

I smelled their scent and we've been

together ever since it's like immediate

install lust everywhere yes yeah like

there there's no conversations there's

no like getting to know each other

they're just they I mean I guess

essentially it's like your Bas nature

called to my B nature right right but

who you are as a person take it or leave

it like right yeah yeah well and so that

is something that like as crew is kind

of having this monologue um he is

thinking back on an ex named Katarina

that there had been like a really bad

breakup with and like he hasn't really

considered potentially bringing anyone

in um to their pack since everything

kind of went sideways with

Katarina right yeah yeah so there's that

bexley's now on the stage and the way

it's set up they have like two guys on

one side of her two guys on the other

she's kind of in the middle and but they

did put um axon as the beta next to her

to be like cool he will be able yes he's

safer he's level like if something goes

ay he will be able to make sure she is

okay through all of this um but as they

are all getting on stage and kind of

meeting they are

all very much like feeling that Bas

nature base Instinct connection you will

feeling all that attraction

yes and so we actually switched to

Shaw's perspective and um just as she's

answering interview questions he's like

yeah like maybe she's not really who we

thought she was and there's like more to

her than we realized and she's like

beautiful and funny and engaging and

like strong and passionate and just very

into everything that they are seeing of

her plus her sugar cookie

scent doesn't hurt so like before they

thought she was like a like an

airheaded

like I think a little more like

materialistic full of herself yeah um a

little more vain um because while she

doesn't go into detail she like does

kind of give a little bit of like

explanation of like watch like some

friends go through some incredibly hard

things and like this channel gave us a

chance to laugh again and like just kind

of those sorts of answers um but Shaw

can also tell like she she got when she

got asked those questions and his

immediate like instinct is like go and

soothe her and calm her and he's like

she's not my Omega like she does not

belong to me I might be like super into

her but okay I'm just going to like keep

sitting here while we keep this

interview going so switched to bexley's

perspective as she's sitting there she's

realizing their scents are not just

overwhelming they did indeed trigger a

heat and so she's sitting on Stage B my

heat is starting oh my God oh my God oh

my God like what the [ __ ] like I'm [ __ ]

[ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] I'm sitting on

a stage in front of hundreds of people

next to these many of whom are likely

Alphas this is not like surrounded by

yeah like all of this is a bad

situation and axon like oh she's like

I'm perfuming everywhere she's like

these dudes must be overwhelmed she's

like the fact that all of these dudes

are sitting on the stage and calmly

answering these questions when I know I

am like flooding this St fre soaking in

it yes and she's like I'm so I'm I don't

know what to do like my bad but Axton

sees like the stress and pressure and

he's like we're going to we're going to

get you off this stage yeah bless it and

so she he takes her right off and then

her friends are like okay we're going to

take you to the bathroom so you can like

have a little breather Camden tries to

come check on her and like they're like

you have Alpha fairmon coming off of you

you cannot get next to her man this

whole book is

so old

factory like yeah just scent I've read

Omega verse ones where they had like a

scent catalog where the Omega would go

and sniff like pieces of fabric or

something this is how you you'll you'll

know like the your

pack which and but I think that's one of

those things that like I mean kind of

like wolf shifters right like each

author their paranormal shifter universe

is a little different than someone else

cuz I feel like there are some

omegaverse books where they're like oh

this is your like forever partner then

they have other omegaverse books where

they're like you just are into the smell

yeah like you like their smile they

liked yours there's no like this is your

person and you only get one for the rest

of your life right yeah and this book to

me at least fell more in the second camp

in territory versus like the go through

this book and you'll find the smell that

lets you know this person true match yes

mhm is your soulmate and you're like oh

that is a lot of pressure on my

nose I will say I think I've told you

this before when I had covid the first

time and I lost my sense of smell for a

while for like a couple of months um at

one point I was giving my husband a hug

and I like burst into tears and he was

like baby what is wrong and I was like I

can't smell

you a he was like okay well maybe just

go to

sleep maybe we're just going to lay down

just go to sleep we're just going to lay

down it's going to be fine and I was

like okay well I've told you the story

before of like I I had a cold but like

didn't have PG and like still went to

work and Vance made the super spicy soup

and I couldn't I couldn't taste it yeah

and he like made me the soup and I just

have tears streaming down my face I was

like there's no taste just

fire it was the weirdest sensation like

that had never I also remember one time

my sister crying when she had been sick

because she was like what would make me

feel better a root beer float and then

she couldn't taste the root

be

oh you don't really realize how

important smell is until you don't have

it yeah you really don't but also at the

same time it is weird to like read a

book that's just so it's all smell

focused yeah on smell and everyone is

like has two things right it's like

one's like oh he's he smells like beach

sand and leather Pine it's always like

leather is always Sandalwood cigar yeah

yeah sweet tobacco I'm like okay yes and

they're like this one is these two I'm

like I cannot be expected to remember

six

dudes scent makeups no I'm not [ __ ]

them

like this is too much well I've even

sometimes been like I don't even know

what that smell is there was one book

that had like Juniper it was all about

she smelled like Juniper she smelled

like Juniper and I was like isn't that

Jin and then I was at the store and I

saw this like body wash that had Juniper

in it and I smelled it and I was like

that is the most medicinal smell on the

planet and that book is no longer

intriguing to me killed it she smells

like a hospital she smells like gin and

disinfectant what the [ __ ] I remember a

friend one time I was hanging out with

her and her husband and she's like oh my

God guys I saw the cutest little gin

making kit at TJ

Maxx and or like some place like that

and but I kind of paused and I was like

gin

making I'm like so is it just vodka and

Juniper like is that yeah cuz you don't

need to buy a special kit to make your

make your own also you could just buy

Jin just buy Jin how bad do you want it

I'm also not a gin person I like Jin

yeah I feel like it's a polarizing

alcohol it very much is cuz it's got

that like

florally thing underneath it that some

people are into and some people just

aren't I think there are certain floral

notes that I'm like super into and then

there are others that I'm like this is

like the shitty of like a cleaner mixed

with a perfume yeah well I feel that way

about lavender flavored things oh it

tastes like so okay

wait what did you think of that lavender

lemonade tea oh that was good though

because I think it was the lemon it was

the lemon I think it was the lemon no

actually I do agree cuz I like lavender

things but every now and then you get a

lavender thing that you're like this

isn't the right lavender right yeah this

is a little more or like rose sometimes

way too much for me yeah I think Rose is

one of those that like you don't need a

lot to go a very long way yes okay uh

Bexley is in the bathroom because she's

realizing her heat is starting and she's

trying to get a

breather um as she is in the bathroom

she looks up in the mirror there is a

hooded figure behind her there was an

entrance on the other side of the

bathroom that her friends did not know

was there um it is number one Bexley fan

sure sure hooded and being like you're

going to go with me e the easy way hard

way but I'm like here to save you kind

of energy and like pulls out a needle

and like starts trying to grab her and

take her out the other entrance and she

starts fighting back um the stalker is

not much bigger than her okay um and she

like rears back and like cracks her head

against their nose and is able to like

get away but as soon as she like runs

out the exit uh like all of the guys the

interview has ended they are all

offstage so she like crashes into Hawk's

arms and just like has a full breakdown

yeah yes she just went into heat on

stage in front of a bunch of people and

then was nearly kidnapped yeah was like

almost abducted yeah it's not a good day

no not at all and they're like seeing

the bruises start to like form like the

dude had like already backhanded her

like just one of one of those so we now

switch to Hawk's point of view and he's

feeling all kinds of protective rightly

so the guys all run into the bathroom to

check he he's run out the other exit Ard

feels horrible she's like I wouldn't

have told you to go into the bathroom

like I didn't know that there was

another entrance and beex is like no one

is blaming you um but they are all now

trying to figure out what to do because

Bexley is in heat and this conference

was like out in like Arizona or like

somewhere more out west and she lives in

Chicago with her friends the guys happen

to live like an hour and a half away

from where the convention is happening

and they were like okay like well can we

take her back to your hotel and they're

like no we checked out this morning

because today is actually bexley's

birthday and we were going to go to

Vegas tonight so like we don't have a

room and everything is booked and

there's no like heat suits available and

so it gets to the point where the guys

are like you can come back like we we'll

keep you safe you can come to our place

it's no problem at all and beex is like

are you sure there's also like they talk

about having to like register with

the I don't know like Omega Institute or

whatever whatever they called in that

one but yeah like the the parameters of

needing to like make it more official in

Camp's like I'll register it's no

problem like please come back and so

beex is like yep I'm this feels like the

most obvious logical solution and they

end up taking her back to their place

well not yet because she has to like

talk to the police and such um as they

all go to get in the cars ardan and

Jackson and lock all are in their car

and beex ends up with with all of these

guys because their sense they are

keeping her like I don't think cam will

let her off his lap at this point like

growling whenever she tries to leave

their eyesight sort of

energy and so she's like curled up in

Camden's lap

and finally heading out there but she's

also so [ __ ] horny in the seat that

she can't see straight and so Camden's

like okay like sit on my lap like we'll

like register and do everything we need

with the Omega convention whatever it is

um and she like starts straddling him

and like nuzzling her face against his

and like trying to make out with him and

he's like I'm really trying to fill out

this application I'm really trying to do

this form yeah but like to the point

that Shaw's like oh also Camden has

never been with anyone his designation

has never become evident Camden is a

virgin oh yes oh so like just wanted

that on radar as well because he is

stepping into new roles and he's like I

went from kind of being like the nerdy

behind the scenes guy to like now like

being an alpha and like challenging

people to like defend Bexley and just

feeling that difference right how did I

get here yes and so like he's like two

hours

ago I walked into hand this girl a mic

and here we are and now she is grinding

on me yes and so she's like I need need

a release like I need something and

Camden's sitting there as she stradling

and he's like I'm I've never and Shaw's

like

hey turn her around we we'll make sure

we we take the edge off right so she

Beckley and they're all in like a I

don't know how many passenger van but

they're in like a passenger van what

kind of vehicle is this yeah yeah not

like a like they say it's like a

multi-person passenger van with multiple

rows of seats but even at that like

I've written in a lot of those you can't

I mean I guess in a in like the newer

sprinters maybe you can stand but like

for the most part there's still not a

lot of room yeah clearance are like room

for movement and so they're like

okay turn Bexley around put her on her

on your lap and spread her so like Shaw

goes down on her and he's like Camden

play with her boobs and Kim's like okay

very into her could do that yeah he's

like I understand the assignment

so Shaw ends up getting on his knees and

he's like but I did appreciate that even

within her heat he did get consent oh

that is nice right and he's like I want

to make sure like you want this and at

this point she's like [ __ ] a

just take the edge off already man like

I am dying yes she's damn near

Delirious at this point and she ends up

like falling asleep on cam after she

comes and is like very com Ed and very

aroused by all of their smells and she

like kisses Cam and she's like it's a

down payment for

later okay she is in her heat Hannah we

don't need to be judgmental she's trying

her best well that's just a weird thing

to say but okay that's fine it didn't

feel as weird reading it as how I you

just like out on me I'm not going to

Sinclair you don't need to take the heat

for that one I apologize Chelsea says

I'll own that it was my delivery I'm not

doing a great job of

retelling no you are it's just that line

was like H like it felt sweeter in the

moment I got you yeah

okay for the record that that's on

me

um we switched to acent he

was enjoying the kiss is what I wrote I

don't actually know what that means who

is he kissing was he kissing someone was

it watching the kiss who can say there's

so many bodies to

remember um mhm they realize that they

are like they've now arrived at the

ranch and Cam's like okay I'm going to

go make her a snack so that she has some

food and axon can like tell she's

overwhelmed um and is like starting to

like give

her a tour and they're like hey Camden

why don't you stay the night with her

like just kind of helping give some

steps I think also because so like out

of it and like cam in like came in with

the snack and he's like hey do you want

to eat the snack here in this room that

we set up for you or do you want to eat

it in the living room and she's like I

don't I don't this is too overwhelming

yeah and so like asked him be like hey

why don't you eat the snack here and

then like just kind of trying to help

with like those things um but also this

whole Drive the whole day Axton and Shaw

are now like super reved yeah and so

they end up going at it but I also

appreciated there was like super sweet

communication where they were talking

about like bringing Bexley into their

relationship into the pack and like

being like hey like you know she's not a

replacement for you right like and just

like kind of those sweet yeah moments

and like conversations which I

appreciated mhm which cuz I mean I don't

know how much people feel like that

insecurity but I think just like having

a sharance in weird moments is always

nice yeah well I think anytime there's

poly situation there has to be that kind

of communication yes like checking in

with each other and not making

assumptions and all of that so it's nice

when a book does that cuz it often does

consistently throughout this book which

I really appreciate um like really

taking into account everyone's

individual experiences and where they're

at in the moment and just like kind of

acknowledging that before they move

forward instead of just I mean obviously

they jump in there's a lot of [ __ ]

right sure sure but at the same time I

think that acknowledgement is really

important and there's a lot of books

that just kind of like they're like you

smell great your ours for life and it's

a seamless

transition right I'm like did you ask if

she wanted it when she wasn't so out of

her mind and her heat that she was here

for this um so that was my thought at

least mhm so switching back to Bexley

she's now about to shower and like asks

cam to join her um he asked like do you

care that I'm a virgin and she's like

really no I don't not at all this is

only a barrier for one of us my dude um

but also he has a pierced

dick because he had read and been doing

research on what would be most

pleasurable for like an Omega or like a

a partner in the future should he ever

have that chance so he got his dick

pierced that's a bold move

I don't know if I know any virgins that

have genital piercings

no and if you are one listening to this

that is not a judgment I just I don't I

think people I know are people that are

who have gender piercings are people

that you would kind of you'd be like

yeah that fits yeah yeah yeah yeah like

they feel sexually confident in a way

that like they did not mind this sweet

nerdy virgin is not the Pierce Dick

Energy yeah yes yeah the energies don't

match that was my mhm my only that's

that's my my biggest issue with his Pier

dick is that the energy doesn't matter

because when I think Pierce dick I think

like a dude covered in

tattoos and

like badass energy you know yes like

lots of confidence

energy

yeah I like someone who's had his dick

handled more than the person person

piercing it right yes oh like the first

person who touched your dick besides

yourself was a

piercer which like I'm sure that

situation has happened in the real world

it just I'm sure somebody's done it

yeah I just don't have that level of

sexual confidence and I'm

projecting I'm with you so I I don't

know what that say about us but anyway

so he pulls out his Pierce dick is that

what's happening yeah he peels

peels he peels nothing my bad he pulls

out his pierced dick hey there we go

okay um they end up boning she gets

nodded and is very content and happy but

it's also the first time that she hasn't

denied her heat so she is like very like

oh like this is great like I get all the

hype now yes yeah

so switch perspectives we are now on

crew who is chopping wood and avoiding

the

house what you're you said chopping wood

I just I'm a 12-year-old I don't know I

was like what did I I was like what what

did I you're like chopping wood I was

like yeah he was outside like oh crew's

chopping wood cuz when you said crew is

outside I was like oh he's like outside

the door listening or like he's like no

he's outside choing

would because he's avoiding the house

because of the sounds and the smells and

also because he's like she is Delirious

in a heat and while yeah I I am super

into her I don't want to like just take

everything now and like get get caught

up in the Heat of the Moment like he was

very much like I want to wait until she

is of sound mind and so like I don't

think she'll stay like what do we really

have to offer

and just kind of like right she's super

successful in her own right yes she

doesn't need us 1,000% like that is

where his head is at so as he's out

there chopping wood and he's like been

doing it for hours I love that you still

have the smirk on your

face Hawk ends up coming out um and like

they're they end up kind of talking

about like wondering if like cam will

join the pack now that Bexley is there

and kind of like seeing the inevitable

writing on the wall

um but also Hawk pulls out a letter

because number one Bexley fan dropped a

letter off at their property uhoh yeah

um and I forget what it said but

something some vague threat probably

yeah but I think less vague threat and

more like vague I guess kind of threat

but in like the stalkers BR like promise

of like don't worry devotion yeah don't

worry I'm watching you like I've got to

protect you kind of

energy so crew's brother Cohen is a

detective and so he's like I'm going to

bring Cohen in he's like clearly Bexley

needs to stay with us we can like bring

some extra people on so all of these

dudes they live on this like 5,000 acre

ranch that has been passed down from

generation to from generation to

generation in Cruz family okay um and

there are lots of different things set

up so like Cruz family has houses on

other parts of the property but there's

also like a whole

like

agriculture theme part like AG

retainment theme part kind of thing

so I animals whatever they are making

their land work for them they have a

ranch whatever um and so he's like oh

I'll bring in some extra employees that

are actually just like plain clothes

security and things of that capacity

and then also as hawkk and crew are

having this convers conversation Jackson

and ardan are walking by because they

were going to go to the house to check

on Bexley and then ardan ends up like

giving them even more contact context

past what her own personal trauma was

got it so um she ends up telling them

that bexley's parents were um a mated

Alpha and Omega who were registered as a

pack but never grew their pack so it was

a twers attack and they had Bexley um

her dad passed like died in a tragic

accident sort of energy and her mom uh

automatically like was unable to care

for herself just like the loss of

connection to her Alpha destroyed her

and a month later she passed away

because she like had not been caring for

herself and Bexley ended up in the

hospital because Mom like wasn't caring

for her kid either so like like Bexley

was like malnourished and dehydrated and

through went just kind of dou down and

solidified that like this is whyley has

chosen the life that she's chosen not

because like she doesn't think alphas

and Omega should mate but just like

because of her experiences being like is

it really is it that worth it yeah like

lots of trauma in there yeah it's it's

kind of more her experience but then

ardan's also like telling the guy she's

like I wouldn't tell you this if I

didn't think that like you were worth

hearing that and knowing that um and

like is like Bexley is very much worth

it and so like whatever your thoughts

have been of her like know that she is

like legit yeah ardan great wingwoman

energy I actually just downloaded I

never read it so I read this book a

couple years ago um and then ended up

rereading it because I wanted to outline

it for the

show but I'd never read the second book

in the series I think there are three

but the second book is about ardan and I

think Cohen the detective the detective

brother of yeah and then I think one of

the betas I'm curious I have no idea

haven't read it but there is another one

in the series okay yeah and I did enjoy

this one enough that I'm like yeah I'll

definitely like read more I I think at

the time I was like I don't know enough

about the Omega verse I'm going to go to

something I'm more comfortable with yeah

I do know a little bit

better um so we now switched to Hawk

who's just like chilling in the house

and walks out of the room that they'd

like set up for Bexley and it's like is

this a [ __ ] initiation and they're

like what what do you mean like what's

wrong and he's like you left me the

Virgin alone with the Omega and heat for

24 hours I'm only one man I'm [ __ ]

dehydrated I do not have enough fluids

for this it's kind of like he's like is

this an initi why would you guys leave

me the Virgin along with

her you didn't even bring me any water

or a Power Aid or some [ __ ] peanuts

come on guys that's

hilarious and Hawk's like oh maybe we

like misread this situation so Hawk and

Shaw go into to check on her and they

realized that like they're definitely

been a miscommunication they had been

wanting to respect her so been like

waiting for her to initiate or ask them

to like join and and help take care of

her um but then them not ever showing up

or checking on her at any point she just

like assumed they didn't want to they

yeah that they weren't interested and

she was like oh like I didn't like want

to pressure anyone or like make them

feel bad or like that this was like

required or anything and yeah like

Hawk's like oh we [ __ ] up very badly

he's like no no no we really want to be

here we are very glad to be

here um and but C is also like thankful

for the break at this point uh what

happens next Hawkin

Shaw Eiffel Tower her

yeah and what have you seen the Tik Tok

series of the girls who do back and

forth um that one person that takes ice

breakers too far and they say just the

most outlandish [ __ ] to each other the

next time it pops up on my for you I'm

going to send it to you but there's one

where the girl is like so you have to do

an Eiffel Tower with Lucifer and the

pope who's in the

middle and so that's what I just thought

of when you said

that who is in the

middle

Icebreaker should I ask that for next

week's work like my like my team meeting

every Thursday at work should I ask that

my boss would love it who's also

probably listening to this episode hey

Caitlyn

hey Kaitlyn can I ask this as our ice

breaker just let me know girl I think my

sister actually sent me a couple if I

can find them I'll send them to you cuz

they're very

funny I love a good quirky Icebreaker

question I well when we were on the same

team I defaulted a lot to um Chuck

cler's 23 questions he ask everyone he

meets to know if he can truly love them

yeah those are some very interesting

questions that I've like brought back a

couple times I can appreciate that but

they're also like a whole paragraph of

setup so I don't do them often like okay

here's all of the back story you need go

and I'm like this isn't this is a bit

much for a Thursday morning meeting we

just want to read our spreadsheet and

move on we just want to get through this

[ __ ] and get off this link yes y okay so

the Eiffel Tower her she's once again

very happy to be nodded at this point

she's like given into the Heat and is

like you know not denying my heat is

really dope for a lot of reasons

right switching back to the number one

Beckle

fan he is nearby as we have obviously

already deduced from the fact that he

dropped off a [ __ ] letter MH um and

he is very angry to find out that she is

now [ __ ] them and he's like what the

hell like she is supposed to be with me

we are supposed to be together forever

is is kind of this energy and I'm very

upset we also find out cuz he starts

playing them back to check on

them I'm not fully sure how but he's

managed to get like audio recording of

some of the dude's

conversations H um because it seems like

the stalker is not a strong presence in

a room like kind of can like ah yes he's

a blend like he Blends

1,000% yes not like an not like Aon hot

alpha stalker yeah um like some of the

books that we've read yeah yeah um no

very much like the blender who can just

like oh like casually do this in the

background and no one really noticed is

more of it um and so he we know that he

has all of these recordings or at least

a couple recordings at this

point Bexley we now cut back to her

she's now SED enough to be sane like

yeah like the heat is like to Break

um but it's also funny so she's in the

room in the makeshift Nest that they

made her they like she's not in the nest

that they built for their place right

because that would be maybe a step too

far yes like they are not mated it is

not hers but they like did set up a very

lovely room actually I think like crew

called his sister who lived on ground

who like when they were driving like set

it all up very beautifully for her

that's very thoughtful but but bexley's

hanging out in the room and it's like

Cam and Hawk and Axton and sha crw is

the only one who's like not there and so

Aon is like oh like I want to I want to

try something and then looks at Cam and

is like so are you like solely a breast

guy because Axton is trying to be the

best wingman ever and it's also like

Hawk and cam have been in together into

each other forever like okay let's try

and make this happen but it's like very

obvious about it and not not subtle at

all and we love that but like then they

all kind of like start like sharing like

small secrets and like the confession

comes out that like I think a not aent I

think Camden is like do you remember

when like this happened like when we

were like this old and hk's like yeah

and ax like I really like thought you

were going to kiss me after and he's

like wait what I wanted to kiss you

after and so like it's funny because

they're definitely trying to manipulate

the situation to get these results but

it worked in a very endearing way very

wholesome like yeah yes um and something

about being clumsy makes it more

wholesome I agree because there's no

finesse it's just a yes well and then

there is a group sex scene uh Shaw ends

up nodding her this

time okay Shaw knots her while axon is

in her ass okay and they're like oh

Axton is a beta so he doesn't have a not

to worry about when it comes to anal

right so this is the this is the

question I had Hannah MH what does this

mean for cam with his fluid

status cuz he's knotted her right so I'm

like wait but betas don't have

knots so I don't know see and I knew you

wouldn't yeah and that's why I was like

there's no pressure but it was a

legitimate question honestly if other

people are more familiar with the Omega

verse and can legitimately clarify this

for me I was wondering so I was like

okay so like how does that work because

for as silly as this might sound

like I didn't imagine that like your

knot was like the size of your balls but

like right it's a substantial size yeah

because it's like the whole thing is

like the knot ends up inside it expands

it locks you like my understanding is

that the not inflates so it's like not

so betas would like potentially still

have knots but it's the but it doesn't

inflate so you have to be okay do you

see what I'm saying so like it like I I

don't think there's always a not just

there and you have to deal with it I see

so maybe that's the thing maybe that

would that feels like the most logical

solution but I was yeah I was curious I

was wondering

um yeah great group sexine as I said sha

kns her axon in her ass she's blowing

Camden while he's giving Hawk a handy

sure it's like a whole everybody gets an

orgasm also I was talking to my husband

and our roommate about this last night

because we previously had this

conversation about how many dicks a girl

can take at once right how many dicks is

Too Many Dicks we said five was the cat

I think last night we figured out how to

fit a six in there really carefully

very very very

gently well okay we're like cuz I think

in my head I had always been basing

it on the girl being on all

fours oh okay yeah yeah so we

realized that okay a dude a girl on her

back on top of the dude he's in her ass

girl a guy between her legs

closely she could if it was a tiny

man are you gonna demonstrate for me get

if he's not a large man and she gets her

legs around his hips she could

hypothetically get one more dick between

the feet she could yeah we fit a six in

there yeah that is the limit so I

learned I don't know have you ever

listened to um Tony and Ryan their the

podcast they are um

Australian and they're quite funny and a

friend of mine loves them listens

religiously well on Thursday she sent me

the link for their latest episode and

she said I was not prepared for this and

I was like what are you talking about

yeah they had on a porn star and they

make dirty jokes a lot but it's not like

it's just a comedy type podcast where

they just laugh together you know well

they had on this porn star and the porn

star described her one of her signature

moves which is the stack which is what

you just described without the feet

without the feet without the feet it's

the

stack and I was like that's like her

favorite one and I was like fting

listening to this on a Thursday morning

while I was doing my performance

Improvement

spreadsheet so I was like oh my God I

know what that's called it's a

stack nailed it it's a stack nailed it

so proud of myself yeah well cuz here's

what I realized if you're on all

fours takes the feet out of it but also

makes it harder to use your hands

exactly cuz I was like you can use your

feet but you have to have your hands for

support you cannot have a hand on each

dick yeah yeah you have to have at least

one hand for support if you're going to

be on all 1,00% yeah I realized this um

as I was I'm glad there's not video

evidence of me trying to figure this out

just me and my husband and our roommate

hanging out well cuz there there have

definitely been times when you've tried

to act it

out anyway when I've been here I don't

know if you're talking about Hannah yeah

I definitely

have physical comedy you know it is in

your wheelhouse yes unfortunately the

listeners of this podcast will never

know unless you check it out on YouTube

I'm not posting a video of that well I

meant this episode you just did

it I was like Hannah no that's not she

said I'm not doing a YouTube short of me

trying to demonstrate how you can take

six sticks at

once oh my God my face

hurts Okay it's 3 days later okay uh her

heat is finally breaking and the guys

are all sleeping Bexley leaves in search

of Food Finds crew and he's still being

a little bit standoffish um which she

interprets as like she's bummed that she

can't stay because crew is being

standoffish and she's like oh okay well

like if this is the

situation they are pack I'm not in this

like right Pat comes before that I

clearly will not be invited to stay long

term and is like getting pretty bummed

about it and like starts asking she's

like why did you let me come here at all

like right if you didn't want me here

yes yeah yeah and he's like because my

my pack is happy and she was like it

doesn't matter that your pack is happy

because I'm never going to ask them to

choose like you you are their pack so

this was super shitty and it was the

first like it clicks for crew that he's

like oh she actually wouldn't ask me to

choose and we we find that that was the

ongoing issue with Katarina was that

Karina it kind of started as like yeah

here for the pack but really just was

there for crew only wanted crew and then

tried to like gave crew an ultimatum and

was like it's me or your pack and crew

is like okay so I'm choosing my pack

right um and so him actually hearing her

say like oh

I wouldn't ask you to choose right I

would leave if you didn't want me to be

here like I wouldn't ask the rest of

your pack to mhm choose either yeah

1,000% also I feel like my mic is

dropping does seem that way but it's

very secure so I've live okay hopefully

I realized I was like starting to slink

on the couch trying to fit and I was

like I could just raise the mic you

could and you did sucessfully this is

what freedom feels like look at us

go um but then crew realizing through

her saying like it doesn't matter that

your pack is happy I would never ask you

to choose um realizes that she's legit

and then and he's like listen I'm very

into you and it's like his starts

thawing and he's like the only reason

that I was keeping a distance is because

I was afraid that like you were going to

come out of this heat and be like okay

I'm ready to bounce and like you didn't

actually want any of us long term and

he's like someone needed to stay sane

while you were in your heat and she's

like oh okay we've we've cleared the air

here they seal it with a kiss they kind

of move forward we switched to Camden

there's a sweet convo with Hawk where

they're like

hot he's kind of explaining he's like

hey well I'm an alpha with uh

Bexley I'm a beta with you a he's a

switch yes he's a switch we love that

for you um

which is apparently not common in this

Omega verse I've never heard of

it that I've read but I'm like oh so

he's like a verse or a switch that's

okay yeah I get it um and so so the hawk

like he and Hawk are like very excited

to kind of have cleared that and

clarified that between them um but then

they're also like where's Bexley and

like she went downstairs and they're

like wasn't wasn't crew downstairs sh

yeah they're like oh [ __ ] we got to like

go make sure she's fine and when they go

downstairs they find like Bexley and

crew doing the dishes together just like

laughing hip to hip like washing and

drying and just this like kind domestic

scene yes this like very sweet

moment uh and so they end up deciding

they're like all right let's give Bexley

like a a full tour of the property

because she came in and we essentially

gave her a tour of this mattress filled

room right that she's live been in for 4

days while we've [ __ ] her non-stop so

yeah now she can see the rest of the

property now that that's done right so

they they give her to her but when they

come back there's a gift box outside

uhoh yep address to Bexley and when they

open it there's a dead dove in the Box

this is important cuz I didn't mention

it earlier Dove is the nickname that

Camden has chosen for Bexley that he

calls her yes so it's a little more

pointed so she starts sobbing and is

like I need to leave like you guys

aren't safe as long as I'm here and the

guys are like no you need to stay we'll

protect you um crew's brother Cohen

shows up and um is talking to all of

them and giving them updates and he

mentions like yeah the first note is at

the lab and bex's like the what first

note uhoh because she she was in here

she was in heat and they were just kind

of like handling it so as soon as she

realizes that though she's

like oh you have no real info you have

no nothing to go off of I clearly have a

stalker people are not safe I need to go

back to Chicago and the guys are like

absolutely not he is your stalker we are

are safe mhm you are not safe do not go

back to Chicago where we cannot protect

you right um and she's like you know

touche yeah so like she's planning on

staying and as crew is walking his

brother out um his brother is kind of

like have you guys thought about bonding

at all because that like not trying to

like pressure you or put any like

forward momentum on that he's like but

like bonding does help because then you

can feel them through the link if

something did happen or like

like from a safety perspective and less

of like you met yesterday you already

yeah um and then crw kind of like do you

think Katarina could be involved at all

because she was always kind of a a

shadier person than we realized and so

yeah just a lot going on in that regard

switch back to

Bexley she can't sleep so she leaves the

room and it's just like pondering a lot

head has a lot going on yeah and uh go

to stare out the window and just Ponder

her life you know sure but she thinking

Deep Thoughts yes all the all of the

deep introspective thoughts middle of

the night thoughts and she rested her

head against the glass window and I'm

like does anyone do that in real life if

you do please let me know yeah I'm like

I don't want to clean the window

literally I don't won't even do it in

the car on Long rides because I'm like

it's going to be smudgy not with a

pillow unless unless there's a pillow I

have a hoodie yep yeah no I don't like

the face oil on the random things I feel

the same way and that really stood out

to me was she's like resting her head on

the window she's having this like

dramatic thinking her thoughts moment um

but she sees a light flicker outside

then hears the door and she's like oh my

God oh my God it's the stalker it was

just crew who couldn't sleep and was

smoking a cigar um but when he comes in

he's like Bexley are you okay and she's

like fully freaking out and she's like I

saw someone was outside I heard that I

didn't know and he's like oh my God like

my just me yeah my bad um but then he's

like all right let's like take care of

you and then he's also like we haven't

properly corded you and done all of the

things the way we should have done them

and he ends up drawing her a bath which

is very kind they they have what I would

call their solidifying [ __ ] in the bath

mhm and he asks her to stay and she

asked them to be her pack like they have

not formally made it but like okay he

was kind of the last hurdle before those

things can start happen they're

declaring intentions

yes um they as a like as a whole pack

and Bexley they all kind of like start

working on shooting some content

together to kind of start Shifting The

Narrative of their accounts and like all

that kind of stuff and they decide to go

into town to get some ice

cream and just guessing that's a bad

choice why do you think it's a bad bad

choice anah seems like there's a stalker

nearby well do you think it's because

they're going to run into Katarina who

happens to live in town oh oh yeah which

and like Bexley comes out with like all

of this confidence cuz like Katarina

like looks at her and is like oh so like

I see you're the Omega they've been

shacking up with or like says something

like this and Bexley like comes out the

G and is like really cuz like I haven't

heard one thing about you and like comes

out with like all of this bravado but

then the first time like like Kine is

like listen I was around for like 10

years and like they'll take what they

want and not mate you and like like and

then bexley's kind of like wait what

like all of her bravado disappears and

she's like wait what oh maybe there's

like something some some Credence not

Credence that's not the word I'm looking

for like validity valid yeah I don't

know what word I was looking for it was

closer to to Credence credibility

maybe yeah I think I just combined

and but it was still closer Credence I

don't know I don't know why cred I was

like what's the yeah not the word I was

looking for but still great synonyms

that did work for whatever word I can't

identif we found it we I mean I know

what you mean I didn't no I mean I know

it I we found the the message right we

found found the message if not the

word so now bexley's like very in her

head but like everyone else is kind of

like starting to like defend her and

like lay into Karina a little bit and

Bexley realizes like her ice cream is

just like melting everywhere so she goes

to like throw it away and this older man

is like hey like are you okay like

here's a here's a handkerchief and gives

it to her and just this like kindly

older man and he's like my name's Emory

and she's like okay like thanks so much

and like then all of the guys are kind

of like who's this random old man and

he's like she just seemed upset like and

just kind of moves on yep your face is

is the right face yeah but they also

text Cam and give him an update before

they get back to the house that like

kind of a heads up hey we ran into

Katarina in town oops Yeah not ideal and

they're all very nervous that like

Bexley is withdrawing Bexley is also

like well I I want them to be my pack at

this point I want them to make me and

claim me and they haven't so like is is

there something I'm missing that they

are like they're saying that like they

don't want to rush it but is there

something actually underlying that like

is going to prohibit them from doing

this in the

future um and so as Camden is like

talking with all of the guys before

Bexley gets there they're like they're

all kind of having that conversation and

K's like I want to claim her and crew is

like okay so what does that mean for you

joining our pack

because like that it's all going to kind

of have to come into the fold together

so Camden ends up joining their pack and

he's like I don't even know how to do

that and crew's like okay like try and

find your link with your brother that

you have inate okay so you found that

link now you can find your brother's

link to us to us yes so they all kind of

like confirm been like Camden links in

to their pack as Sean axon and Bexley

and they all get back and so like

bexley's just kind of sitting outside

quiet

contemplative and crew

pours a glass of wine and hands it hands

it to Camden is like hey like get like

we think you should be the one to claim

her first and like you're kind of the

least threatening this is she was always

she always felt safest with you from the

beginning 1,000% all of those

thoughts and he ends up cuddling her and

giving her the wine and like tells her

like I I want to claim you I like they

they end up have like they end up having

their solidifying [ __ ] where he does

officially mate her and claim her and uh

he puts his claiming mark on her boob

because that's his

favorite part on her

body but I I do find that like I find

that so interesting in like different

like paranormal books like how some

people like yeah I love that my claiming

Mark is on my collar bone for everyone

to see and I just find it very

interesting where like different authors

choose to like do different things yeah

well I've read some where like the

claiming Mark was like right over the

nipple but it was like a reverse herum

and so it was like the guy who was maybe

a little bit more subtle in the world

but was more maybe a little more

aggressive sexually like that's where he

put it but then the guy who was like

more aggressive out in the world put it

like right on her neck you know yes yeah

yeah I just always find it very

interesting so I'm like huh of do we

have options outside of shoulders and

boobs right well I read one where it was

on her ass and she was really mad about

it it was a Rebecca's anetti I think

yeah no I know exactly what but but that

one was also not like a bite that was

like his hand like a like stamp came out

of yeah a brand that came out of his

hand like glancing her with fire on yes

and she like she they [ __ ] and then

she's like I have a burn mark on my ass

where you just branded

me and yes I remember I was like I'm

annoyed for you girl yeah like I'd be

pretty pissed too that he didn't tell

you and just did that no no not

cool um they yeah so they may he claims

her by biting her Boop um we switched to

bexley's perspective she wakes up as

happy as can be and then here's her

phone going off and so she goes to check

it and sees that number one Bexley fan

has uploaded several videos um some are

like very very shoddy quality and some

are just audio but it's all of them are

clearly the guys oh um secretly

recording yes with like various sound

bites of like talking like back at the

convention about like this is just for

business like we don't like I like I

don't care about her this is just for

numbers like all of those sort of random

like outof context sound bites right

without dates I'm imagining as well um

well there was one dated ironically that

you say that where there was a video of

crew and Katarina kissing that was a

like timestamped three days

um however in the future Cruis like that

video was 4 years ago that video was not

3 days ago yes um but like things like

Yeah from the convention but also audio

from since they've been at the ranch so

it's not all outdated where you can make

oh this was like before we'd spent time

together but like things about like when

crew was saying that he wasn't sure he

could commit at the ranch but like what

he was really talking about was more of

like the she's Delirious in a heat like

we're not going to commit if like that's

the situation right we're not going to

take advantage of somebody who can't

fully consent

1,000% and so beex Ley though like see

like listens to all of these videos sees

all of the posts is like this has all

been a lie

and uh tries like goes to take off and

then cam tries to follow her and is like

talk to me like let me explain and she's

like there's nothing to explain and she

just straight up leaves and she's like I

guess I'll just have to live with

without you through our bond she's like

I know we like bonded last night that

very unfortunate timing like bonded and

immediately is like oh [ __ ] immediate

regret yes

yeah um so a we switched to Axton axon

um was with the guys and they were in

town for work and then saw the videos

happening and like rushed home um and

when they get back to the house they

just find like cam has like a bag of ice

to his head and is like lock knocked me

out when I like tried to like go and

like talk to her and like get her to

stay and they're gone and she's like

throwing up walls and blocking our bond

and there's like nothing I can do and

like cam is just like destroyed

yeah a poor baby oh yeah well so now

switched to Hawk it's been two weeks

later cam is like damn near despondent

in bed it's just like cannot eat cannot

like it's just unable to function um and

just like the pain of being separated

from his bonded Omega um but then Hawk

is like hey guys I called in a huge ass

favor with Cohen and got her a dress in

Chicago um we need to go get her yes

let's all go get our girl so we cut to

Bexley who's also miserable and she's

been crying

and and sleeping nonstop and just really

struggling and has now started puking as

well and is like man I like I just like

can't get my body regulated after all of

this and then ardan is like you're

pregnant here's a pregnancy test for you

to take

um and ardan also kind of like gently

points out and that like in that

conversation cuz she she backs her girl

right she's like I'm here for you here's

a pregnancy test whatever you need I'm

here for also lovingly kindly maybe you

didn't really talk to the guys you're

hear them out maybe there's some context

we were missing and we jumped to some

conclusions I love you take the

pregnancy test

like which I just like yeah appreciate

it as like wingwoman energy as being

someone who's not just blindly backing

their bestie but also like like I'm

going to back you but also have you

considered I'm still here though mhm you

don't have to consider I'm just saying

yes

exactly so um ardan and Jackson and lock

all go out to like a few errands and

bey's like okay like it's been a while

like ardan's kind of been like managing

the channel I've clearly been

incapacitated so she hops on to do a

live and as she's doing the live the

door the lock on her door gets picked

and [ __ ] stalker number one Bexley

fan Emory the old man who gave her the

handkerchief sure sure sure like she

turns around and is like Emory what are

you doing in my

apartment and it's like this whole like

he and like kidnaps her she fights all

of it is on live so everyone sees this

go down and sees her gets subjected like

injects her she passes out and he just

takes her and leaves so all of the guys

have now made it to Chicago CU they were

coming for her but they were like hey

once again Camden you're her bonded

Alpha you should be the one to go greet

her so po Camden poor cam well cuz he

goes up the

elevator and knocks on the door and when

he knocks on the door it creaks open

right as we think and then as's kind of

sitting there like what the [ __ ] is

happening uh Jackson and lock and ardan

are all getting back and so they come up

the other elevator and they're like what

are you doing here and he's like um I

came to get Bexley back and I just

knocked on the door and I opened and

like what is happening and they go in

and like see the lamp knocked over like

see the aftermath of it um and cam

starts like absolutely like losing it

like it was on live the breast the pack

was watching from where they were so

they called 911 so like right after all

of them get in and see the aftermath the

police show up as

well and um Shaw also like recognized

them he was like he gave her a

handkerchief and like remembered him and

everything and like cam starts losing it

especially because they're bonded and it

like and she'd had this barrier up

between them be and so the barrier

dropped

and he just is like overwhelmed by like

her pain and fear

and all of that was the pregnancy test

positive did we ever know oh I thought

it was obvious yes sorry I mean I

assumed yes but like we never said it I

just I you're right sorry the pregnancy

test was positive um and so cam feels

like all of this and then the wall goes

immediately back up and he just like

becomes inconsolable and all of them are

just like trying to take care him and he

is absolutely struggling to the point

that they were like maybe he needs to be

taken back to Arizona where like he is

more familiar with like the pack sense

and like maybe that would kind of help

stabilize I like it's that bad so switch

to Bexley um it's now been a while like

it's been she's like I don't know how

long I've been here but after like a

couple days I realized no one was coming

to get me um is is kind of the energy

and like she can't keep any food down

and he has her handcuffed to the bed and

the few times Emory has like unhand

cuffed her she's accidentally pissed

them off and it hasn't gone well and

she's just like riddled in bruises and

and not thriving yeah yeah um and he

comes in to check on her and he's like

that

like like I I guess he's technically has

an alpha designation but kind of that

beta energy stalker of he's like I

wanted to like give you time to adjust

and realize you're in love with me

instead of like the stalkers that are

just like obviously you're in love love

with me yes yeah who wouldn't be yeah so

he's like brought things to like lift

her spirits but now like her scent is

becoming more prominent that it's

changing because of the pregnancy right

and so he realizes that she's pregnant

with their baby and he's like don't

worry I had a situation but I can take

care of this for you and she's

like no no so she completely like

switches and his her story and she's

like well no like he's going to need a

strong Alpha father and like we could

raise this baby together and like you

are the person for me and like I guess

Emory had always really identified with

beckley's

Channel because she talked about not

letting your designation Define you and

because he's never been the strongest of

the alphas and those things like he

really identified with her uh

Independence Independence yes that's a

great word for it and just like the the

freedom and not let

societal Norms tell you what you need to

be so like I kind of I mean he's a

stalker and obviously not cool but like

I kind of felt bad for him a little bit

in that way if I'm being

honest you can be honest this is a safe

space it is but it feels weird to be

like I'm sympathizing with the stalker a

little bit not not with the stocking no

I get what you're saying though you can

empathize with the pain that he feels

but that doesn't mean that we empathize

with behavior that doesn't change the

behaviors or what we did that is

absolutely Fair um and so within that

conversation though it's also kind of

coming out that like the videos he

posted he's like well I wanted to show

you like what could happen so like I'm

glad you realized that and she's like

what could happen not what did happen

and like he like owns he's like yeah

like I mean I cut like I cut some of the

videos and maybe they weren't fully in

context but like I wanted to make sure

you understood like they were no good

for you and what could happen so like

she's realizing that maybe she jumped to

some some conclusions and never really

talked to people about it well In

fairness to her she had some hormone

situation going on and was

not with

it you're giving a lot of credit to her

pregnancy in that

situation or were was it the heat that

you were giving credit to I mean kind of

both like the first time she ever gives

into her heat that's fair and then she

gets pregnant right after and doesn't

really realize like I could see how it

would be

difficult to be making any kind of

decision

anyway or think rationally you know yeah

that's I am giving a lot of credit

but but it is no I mean that's valid but

cuz I guess in my head I'm like you

thinking of when I was very first

pregnant I'm like when I took the test

my hormones had not shifted enough yet

like feel like the irrational emotions

of

pregnancy um but that is very valid as

well I will give her that credit but

yeah so she like tells him that she like

wants to raise the baby together and

he's like he like tries to kiss her and

is like starting to like feel her up and

she's like oh I'm so dirty like I like

want to like be bathed and clean for the

first time and he's like I'll draw you a

bath like let's go shower and she's like

okay so he goes to draw her the bath she

she had one handcuff on her wrist one

was on the bed he unhooked her from the

bed so she wrapped the handcuffs around

his neck and chokes him until she kills

him good for her yeah so she kills Emory

and escapes and has no idea where she is

but is just like running Barefoot in the

woods until she finds a dirt road and

then a car happens to be driving past

and like the driver like obviously sees

her and stop and it's like oh [ __ ] like

you're that social media star who's all

over the news that like everyone knows

we've been looking for you yes you've

been missing for like 2 weeks is like

kind of like what it came down down to

um at the hospital well I guess after

the hospital he had never really touched

her cuz he was kind of trying to like

build their emotional connection right

and so for the most part like she has

some new bruises but is safe and okay

all things considered like didn't have

to stay at the hospital the baby's okay

um and then as she is about to leave the

police station they are like her friends

try and like guide her through the back

and they're like oh cuz all of the news

outlets are out front and so bex's like

I'm going to make a grand gesture to my

guys and like go give a press I'm going

to send this message through the media

you get it yeah which okay sure give a

press conference right now yeah I'm not

a social media star I would maybe send a

message a different way and that's just

me yes so switch to Shaw's perspective

the guys have actually are now back in

Arizona because cam got that bad that

they were like we cannot stay like it

has been two weeks we he needs to be

stabilized so they've been back for two

days and they are surviving as is

probably the the kindest way we can say

it um and then here on the news that

there's breaking news are watching this

whole like

heartfelt interview where she's like

saying like I like didn't give them time

and credit or and all of that kind of

stuff as they're watching it there's a

knock on the door is it Bexley

[Laughter]

duh obviously I'm also thinking like if

I was one of the reporters I'd be like

[ __ ] I really do not care I'm

interested in the old man you just

killed I I don't care about your weird

pack Dynamic I actually thought that

when I was like reading the speech I was

like are these news people like what the

[ __ ] we we thought we were about to hear

about your

abduction we want to hear about the

weird handcuff moment like I don't care

about I don't care I don't care about

the ride and Alpha Channel yeah so like

Bexley shows up there's all of the

Declarations of love she tells them

she's pregnant with their child all of

they like everyone who has not claimed

her officially gets to claim her they're

alog together and then in the epilog

they have a baby girl and also in the

epilog you like it sets it up for ardin

and Cohen and whoever ends up in that

book as well okay yeah that was a very

fun

story I really enjoyed it yeah yeah like

I think there were a couple moments

where just like the insecurity or like

the being in your head and just like I

think when you're reading that many

characters being in their head you're

like oh my god get it together but for

the most part really enjoy it mhm yeah

mhm what's our ratings

go oh I don't know

handcuffs nests live streams I I don't

know how many Tik Tock

apps how many Tik Tok video how many

reals no

um we could go handcuffs it's two

handcuffs she was also wearing leather

pants at one point so first I was like

we could do leather pants but then I

realized at no point did I mention she

was wearing pants nor were they really

relevant we could do um

um pieces of

wood I don't know for the chopping I

don't know why I did that hand motion

I'm so so sorry wood yeah great hand

motion thank you I am known for my hand

motions all right out of how many

handcuffs how many handcuffs um

so 10 pairs would be 20 cuffs right 20

cuffs yeah 20 cuffs

um I would rate it like 15 out of 20

cuffs like I honestly think it's a very

fun read M like as I said I got annoyed

at a few moments and I do have some

anatomical biological questions for the

Omega verse but like didn't impede my

enjoyment of the story so yeah I'm going

to go 15 out of 20 I think I'm going to

add this one to my list it does sound

like a fun one yeah I I would encourage

people to if it's not on your list once

again I think not by S Clair Kelly not

KN n o t like the not that ends up

inside of you when you're an Omega and

having

sex well done just in case there was any

confusion about what not we were

referring to so my dad has always wanted

to have a band called and you're not

which is a kind of not a n d u

e from the time I was very small he

would tell anybody that would listen

that their first album would be we are

and you're not and he always just

thought that it was

just amazing that's such an endearing

dad story it is isn't it bless it bless

it well I don't know if your dad would

be into the knots that we're referring

to in this book I don't think

so if he is I don't want to know

that that's information I could do

without about Dave to be

honest for the record not the same Dave

that I ran out of the

talk for the DVR could have been we

lived close enough but anyway that man

didn't have a neck it was like a very

like bulky like like no my dad is slight

yeah I was going to say I've seen photos

that's the only reason I can say with

confidence it's not the same Dave

because we did lead similar enough lives

yeah yeah yeah okay 15 out of 20 cuups

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anatomical situations in the Omega verse

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EP 57: I Think Knot by Sinclair Kelly
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