Smut Club

well hello All You Beautiful

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People you know what time it

is ladies and gents Guys and Dolls and

everyone in

between gather around get you something

real nice to sip on and comfy to slip

on cuz it's time for smut Club here's

your hosts Chelsea and

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Hannah we love a double tap good work

thank

you why was I so proud of my class today

know but you really were I'm really

proud of you I'm happy for you thank you

you're welcome what a great little

affirmation yeah what way know I needed

it I I don't know what it was for even

but it's it's nice to see people win you

know especially when I'm the one winning

that was basically like the quiet part

you didn't say at the end of that

statement well we could have left it

quiet that's not what we do

here no Chelsea you don't understand the

point of our podcast we're 50 plus

episodes in you're not new here oh my

God hey hey guys welcome to smut Club if

you are new here or if you're not new

here welcome regardless of your status

I'm Hannah and I'm I'm Chelsea I'm sorry

we're really

uh the way we are today I don't know

what the energy is I was like what is

this energy I don't know this is the

trying our best energy that is it well

cuz I think there's something to be said

like we started this podcast because we

love it and have fun doing it and

because we would be talking to each

other about books at nauseum anyway so

yep just seemed like an an obvious

trajectory um yeah and we have full-time

jobs and other lives and children and

pets and you know sometimes when we show

up we're like we're here we read the

book yeah looks like we made it so looks

like we made it yeah I was actually

going to sing it first and then I was

like I would have loved that cuz I think

I've told the story about going to

college for kids over the summer it was

like one of our like summer program

options and then my parents would always

uh have me go to like the after program

because they worked as well um and so

like there it was just a free-for-all of

like Elementary age children running

around right and someone and this was

back like I would bring my CDs and they

had a little karaoke boom box with

remember the karaoke boom box I would

bring my Shania Twain

album like all these kids are like

playing dodgeball and I'm sitting in the

corner with the boom

box singing Shia Twain

karaoke with the passion of someone who

like their their man left them and took

the dog but I'm just like seven singing

my heart out and I W like I can't

imagine what the adults in that room

thought looking back on it kids are wild

like kids are unhinged in a different

way he's the best they really are they

really are well I told my husband I was

like our son is I've been calling him

the master of my n

Mayhem because whenever I look over like

he's just doing ridiculous [ __ ] that

like it's not harmful right but like um

his

little Cheerio cup like the little kids

like the stereotypical kind of like the

swirl top to keep the Cheerios in and

bers just kind of jam their hand in

there I went to pick it up to put

Cheerios in it there was like an action

figure in there nice and I was like last

time I saw this I just filled it with

Cheerios it is now empty of Cheerios and

has an action fate like

what he put his spoon in like a maze

that I couldn't get out and I'm like how

are you doing this that's awesome good

work you don't have the motor skills

good work for no I love it he does have

the motor skills clearly you're

underestimating him underestimating him

I was going to let you have it I wasn't

going to say [ __ ] well I heard it and

then I couldn't unhear it and was like

well that's fair okay so once again

welcome to smut Club um this is the

podcast where we review romance novels

of uh varying

qualities and Hannah actually chose the

book for today what is today's book

today's book is the scarred Wolf by

Charlene heart heart Nady

heart what what was that it's h a r t n

a d y heart heart

NY heart oh oh I get it she's like oh no

but well honestly before we got into the

last name when you said the scarred wolf

and yes I we hear it we know it's a

thing

um I paused for a second was like how

many people do you think started reading

that book thinking it was the scared

wolf

and we like this is not the book I

thought it was that's not it no no charl

Charlene is not she's not bringing

scared energy there's very little fear

from this wolf he's got a lot happening

I literally know nothing about this book

so I stumbled upon one of her other

series that's about Dragon shifters and

was just kind of like reading through

some of her other stuff and Came Upon

This one and I so the premise is a

little bit different and I was like you

know what we're going to do that because

my other

options as previously discussed before

we started this morning was a motorcycle

club romance that I can't figure out how

to outline because there are so many

Side characters and um a book called

come for bigfoot that I am unwilling I'm

un I'm unwilling I'm like full stop all

right but like okay come for Bigfoot

come for bigfoot so Hannah I do want to

remind you we reviewed a book called The

Haunted

vagina allow me to explain I yeah allow

me to

explain so this

book three girls are going on a camping

trip high school girls going on a

camping trip come for bigfoot you say

this book not come for bigfoot yes is

three girls going on a camping trip with

some guys from school and one of their

dads they go out into the woods our main

chick just immediately bangs dad just

immediately bangs Dad we love a

confident Queen there's a lot happening

there good for her I'm glad she's happy

um but then the next day he's like

please quit looking at me like that

she's like like what he says a [ __ ] in

heat and as soon as I read that I was

like I no the dad said the dad said that

to the girl that he banged the night

before I was like no I don't I and then

it just gets progressively worse and we

we get into a lot of issues with with

beastiality and other things okay so

like there is an actual Bigfoot There's

an actual Bigfoot and just fun fact if

you want to read this book um Bigfoot's

name is Leonard it caught me off guard

and so I don't want you to be shocked in

the way that I was shocked by the fact

that Bigfoot's name is Leonard

what name would you have chosen I don't

know I guess it it didn't occur to me

that there were multiple where they

would need names well we find out at the

end of this first part that there are

multiples because the girls try to

escape and then they are caught by

multiple bigfoots and then

separated and that's the end of the

first

one so do all of the men on the camping

trip die do do the bfot just like take

the girls and then it's literally the

girls are hanging out the guys are

gathering firewood and then they wake up

in a

basement

so I feel like we could review no okay

no no I would have to leave out certain

things because like I'm not I'm just not

going to say those words and be recorded

we would have to leave out so much that

like it wouldn't we would lose the plot

you know I respect that thank you no I I

understand that and also when you were

saying like all of the side characters

in the MC book y I feel like that is a

little bit of a pet peeve of mine like I

don't mind when you're reading a book

and you're like oh the side characters

were interesting if a book about them

dropped in the future I would add it to

my list but that feels so different than

when like you're like reading a book and

you're like oh they are world build for

the like 20 Other Side characters and I

can't keep everyone straight nor do I

want to yeah it's too much yeah you're

like oh this is not what I was looking

for I just wanted story sprinkles of

everybody's history and it's hard to

know what's important for this book and

what maybe is coming in a later book

it's just a lot to keep track of well

okay we may have talked about this

before um Suzanne Wright uhhuh um who

we've reviewed a couple of her par

normal books but she started doing

contemporary romance um which I

thoroughly enjoyed

but I read several books out of order

cuz I didn't realize there was an order

so I read one book and was like man

there are a lot of Side characters that

they're referencing like I'm supposed to

know who they are and then I realized

it's because the parents of the couple

in the book I was reading each had their

own so that's where all of those side

characters had been developed

was like like the the main dude his

parents had a book The like I'm like oh

this

is this is more yeah than

I like had put together it's a tangled

web honestly maybe even only one of the

it's been a while since I've read it

even if it was only it was just like so

much World building within it that it

yeah it lost it a little bit for me

because I I could not keep all of the

side characters straight and that's like

one of the things with

her other books that I've read I did

enjoy the side characters and the books

that they got after but in this one

there are like two Side characters like

there's not it's like your main folks

the

villain a best friend and that's it like

there's not and so I mean come for

bigfoot didn't sound like it had that

many characters

listen frankly nope I'm leaving it okay

like that you're like hey Chelsea if you

want to the book you can [ __ ] read it

okay you read it I almost put I almost

put it in my car to be like you we I

don't know if we should burn this or

Sage it it's not mine so I can't burn it

but yeah I was maybe check with the

person who were they gifting it to you

or letting you borrow it I don't do they

want it back I'm going to give it

back you're like if I bring that book if

I leave that book in my house I will

have to burn so much Sage yes oh it'll

never be the same but like that's so

that's one of the things that I sort of

didn't like about this book was that it

there wasn't more like richness in it

but we're going to get into

itar we'll get there we'll get there so

we open with Jackson he is witnessing

his mother's murder oh he is very young

he's covered in blood he's screaming

it's really bad and he sees his dad

partially shifted attacking his mom um

they are wolves wolf

shifters and his dad turns and like

attacks him and like he has big open

wounds on his chest like did his dad go

feral well so then he wakes up and he's

covered in sweat and he is really angry

that he can't remember what happened

because that did happen but it wasn't

his dad he knows it wasn't his dad but

he doesn't no like he can't actually

remember so he has these nightmares in

which his dad is killing his mom and

hurting him but it was it wasn't his dad

so it's just a nightmare but all that

really did happen so um he then a little

while later he's in a clearing with his

dad and his uncle and the dad is the

alpha and he's telling Jackson that he

has to kill um the last Living member of

the family that killed his mom so they

know that the moon family killed his mom

and

so this is the last of the line Jackson

has to go kill that

person just to avenge yes to avenge mom

and they also killed the the previous

Alpha and that's how his dad became

Alpha um and so his dad who did not kill

his mom his dad who did not kill his mom

dad the alpha when his mom was murdered

does that matter no he came into the

alpha after after she was murdered so

sorry I may have accidentally put more

vodka in my tea than I realized and I'm

already realizing I was like oh I don't

have these characters straight I feel it

perpetually I love it a strong Breeze

gives me a

blush vodka definitely does same um so

you know Jackson is trying to refuse or

delay because the this is a a pre- wolf

is what they call it so shifters come

into their wolf at age 25 so this wolf

is a human is like as weak as a human

and he's like I'm not going to just like

go around like that that's [ __ ] up

like I'm not doing that yeah I'm not

going to like kill an

innocent relatively right right well he

is convinced this person is evil but

he's still is like that's against my

honor to take out someone intentionally

take someone out who's weaker than me

like that's really messed up I respect

yeah Jackson in certain ways is very

likable with that stuff so his dad is

like not having any of it so his uncle

finally steps in and says listen I

developed this drug uncle is the Healer

for the pack okay he said I developed

this drug you can give the pre wolf that

will prevent them from ever shifting so

it's not going to kill them in fact it

will probably be more torturous for them

because they will never access their

wolf but they will you won't kill them

and so um oh that'd be weird to just

like still have your wolf but never be

able to access it yeah like it's in

there but you can't shift you can't

communicate you don't get access to the

the power so okay the uncle is disabled

he he walks with a limp um and is Dad's

twin and should have been Alpha but

because he was born with a disability um

he stepped aside so his brother could

take the role and Jackson and the uncle

are very close cuz after his mom died

his dad kind of kind of did go a little

bit feral and just could not be there

for him and so his uncle really filled

that role so uncle is keeping the peace

and offering an

alternative um and and so

basically they have already killed the

two wolves that killed his mom they

already killed her pre killed them

previously um and so now they're going

to go after the child who was not there

um and is an adult now but um well that

feels unfair it's pretty [ __ ] up yeah

and the the concern is I don't remember

if they say it in this beginning part

but the concern is that they were two

very powerful Alphas um that killed his

mom and normally two Alphas would not be

allowed to mate like two Alphas that

powerful would not be allowed to mate

because they could make a double Alpha

and we don't know what that means

exactly but everybody's real freaked out

about it like we don't want that um

thank you for telling me that we don't

know what that means cuz as soon as you

said double Alpha I felt you saw it I

felt it I was like what's a double Alpha

you're like I don't [ __ ] know Chelsea

so um Jackson feels better about it he

finally agrees like okay let's do this

so then I forgot we're from Dual points

of view so then we we come to Everly she

works in a care home like a Memory Care

assisted living facility um she's a a

good one yes okay well sort of so she is

talking down a dementia patient she's

very kind very thoughtful um she winds

up getting scratched up pretty badly um

and she gets a phone call as she's going

to clean herself up after that she's in

serious debt um she used the money from

her parents' life insurance to get to

buy an apartment MH um but she makes

very very little money working as a

nurse in this care home and so it

doesn't cover her daily living expenses

even though she doesn't have to pay rent

um and so she's like freaking out and

then when she finally looks down to like

clean up her cut it's like pink instead

of open healing itself already yeah and

so um she's like um maybe I am an insane

person like that's the only answer so

she doesn't know who her parents are in

that capacity no idea so she is thinking

that because she was on the phone with

these debt collectors and like owes them

a [ __ ] ton of money by a certain point

that she was just distracted and like

yeah like oh I guess I didn't get

scratched up as bad as I thought I did

right she like talks herself down

basically um she rationalizes it she

does she does so then we go back to

Jackson and he is um stalking Everly and

he's like shocked that she's a woman

first of all he was like was not

expecting a She Wolf but that's fine

like whatever and also let me guess

wasn't expecting her to be smoking hot

yeah you're you got it so um he is he's

reminding him CU he sees her going to

work in this nursing home and like

interacting with people and she seems

really kind and he's like she doesn't

seem like the evil villain that she's

been made out to be but he's like

obviously she's like stealing from these

old people that's what she's doing like

she's running a scam like that's the

only answer um and it is fasc

how we all rationalize our mental

gymnastics dude yes yes and especially

in a lot of romance novels like you'll

like it'll take three sentences and they

will change their entire trajectory yeah

and you're like that what yeah how do we

get from a to be yeah we we really feel

good about

that that will not hold up in a court of

law Jackson doesn't give a [ __ ] cuz he's

like so mad and he feels all this

pressure to like prove himself to the

pack so even though it doesn't feel

right he is like willfully ignoring all

of his instincts how long ago was his

mom murdered I mean uh 25 years ago I

didn't say 25 mhm 25 years ago oh mhm

lowkey that's longer than I was

expecting yeah very long time so he's

about 28 and Everly is about to be 25 so

he's like she's just biting her time

until she comes into her power and then

she's like really going to [ __ ] stuff up

um so uh the power she doesn't know

about right okay so he decides he he's

like uh he smells her she smells amazing

like on the wind or whatever and he's

like she's trying to play me and it's

like she doesn't know you're

there what the [ __ ] are you talking

about Jackson the world does not revolve

around you my guy no he's very very

egocentric he cannot see outside de it

so he decides to follow her while she's

going for a run and he's going to like

jog past and inject her with the drug um

while they're out so um the uncle warned

him that the drug would trigger a

seizure and so he needed to be really

careful not to be noticed by any humans

and stuff so um he's trying to stay

focused on the plan but obviously she's

super SP super hot and her scent is

spicy

and so he starts calling her evil Spice

in his

mind which he does through out he like

changes the

spice I I like at one point he'll call

her

paprika

[Laughter]

no that would have been

better I liked that

better no

like witch Spice Girl name right he just

I would preferred he just call her cumin

at

some not

nutmeg I see no issue with it like hey

Cayenne what it

[Laughter]

do just saying a um can we also talk

about how like [ __ ] girl fashion is

1,000%

back and I'm like oh I was not prepared

for that no so we've been watching uh

one of the newer Seasons of Love Island

yeah and I looked at my husband and I

was like is this a theme night and he's

like I think that's just their clothes

Chelsea and I'm like oh see I really I

really thought each of the girls was

going for a different sp sp girl and

he's like nope that's just their

outfit

we don't understand Jen Z to be clear

obviously obviously I was trying to say

use Riz in a sentence recently and my

husband looked at me and was like not

like

that nope that's not how you use that

word no

no I was like you know there is some

jenz sayings that I have down which I

also I'm like I'm [ __ ] like I'm 32

you're

not like we're not that out of touch not

decrepit or anything no I I was

literally texting with my cousin

yesterday and was like listen I consider

myself a relatively techsavvy person but

I also feel that each day that passes

there's like another new thing that I'm

like nope not learning that yeah and I

was like and next thing you know I'm

going to be my parents who use voice to

text for all text messages for Google

searches while we are in public like we

will be standing in line at the grocery

store and they are like voiced to te I'm

like no stop stop just what are you

doing just like sh like please just like

you have to hold it a centimeter from

your mouth and Shout to be to like be

heard over the peripheral noise is this

really the best way to do this no and

yet I feel myself getting closer to that

I'm tiptoeing well so yesterday I like

sat down at work and I was like like oh

my God my back really hurts I'm like

what did I do I unloaded the dryer

before I left for work yesterday and I

was like ow

LS my back really hurt on Thursday but

it's because I tried a new workout on

Wednesday and I hadn't paid attent like

where it was it was a really deceptive

workout cuz it was like you're going to

do one kettle bell swing take a breath

you're going to do two B two kettle bell

swings take two breaths you do this up

to like 20 oh Hannah that is 210 kettle

bell swings I was going to say that's a

lot of kettle bell swings when you add

it all up well I like made it to like

the 10 and I was like we got this and

like when I made it to round 12 I was

like this is I'm feeling a shift but

I've committed at this point I finished

when I start yes and then I thought I'd

been using the 15lb kettle bell but I

was using the 25 lb kettle bell the

whole time no wonder your back hurtt

like I like picked my son up out of his

crib and I was like oh my God my hip

flexors I was like I I can't do the

stairs you sit on your butt and like

scoot up I've done that I managed to

make it up but it was

a it was actually when I had to take my

son back up to his crib for his nap a

little bit later I was like I'm you can

crawl I was like I can't carry you kid

I'm sorry you can make it buddy didn't

math right and now I'm too

sore yeah at least you did

something to

like I unloaded the dryer all I'm going

to say is I have taken things out of the

dryer and just like you just breathe

wrong yes and yeah and you're like I

don't know what I did yep but and I

think that's why cuz you're not like

whenever you're picking up a laundry

basket out of the Dryer no one's like

lift with your legs that like right like

when you're working that's a good point

when you're working out you're focused

on your form but when you're taking

stuff out of the dryer you're just

taking stuff out your it's not that

heavy it's fine yeah and then that's

what it is and then mistakes are made

right try better form next

time this is our PSA for the episode

please be intentional when unloading

your dryer and pay attention to the

weight you're using when doing kettle

bell

swings you're welcome yeah okay where we

live to serve so he is following evil

spice oh not paprika yes right he's

following evil spice so and is noticing

she's hot and not and he's planning on

injecting her but knows that she'll have

a seizure so he has to be mindful yes

okay so just as he's about to get to her

she falls like trips over nothing and um

he trips over her and drops the

syringe and so she's like oh my God I'm

so sorry like that I don't know what

happened and he's like I know what

happened like all wolves when they're

close to shifting for the first time get

really clumsy as like their wolves and

their humans start to like come together

um but he's real pissed about it so he's

a dick that's why I'm going to blame my

like what I'm going to blame my

clumsiness on in the future is my my

impending shift I'm about to shift for

the first time sorry can't help it

it's just a thing you you get

it you know how it goes about to shift

you understand um and so um but he's

real he's really pissed about it yeah

like he's really mad that he missed his

opportunity and that he dropped the

syringe because he's like [ __ ] like it's

under a bush or something he's like I

got to come back for that but I can't go

get it now so it's the whole thing and

so he is like actively reminding himself

not to fall for her like cute little

innocent act because she's like oh my

God I'm so sorry I'm so sorry he's like

maybe [ __ ] figure out your feet bud

and like takes off see the funny thing

is I had really thought that like I was

like oh this is going to be a meat cute

instead no it's not cute like I was

fully prepared for that to be the

trajectory like oh it ends up being a

meat cute and they have this sweet

moment no there's no sweetness there's

no sweetness and then Everly is really

pissed about it so she's back at her a

partner or her a partner her a

partner I haven't really been drinking

that much but I'm struggling so hard

with words I don't know why it's because

I'm close to my

[Laughter]

shift oh why didn't you say so sooner

yeah thank you so um she's back at her

apartment and she's really pissed she's

feeling very emotional because um she

she is realizing she's probably going to

have to sell her apartment and downsize

because of all of her debt um and she

loves this place like it's been her

consistency since her parents died she's

mad about the run in with Jackson I'm

about to be an [ __ ] and I respect

that everyone's financial situation is

different go ahead I know she is not a

good nurse if she can't afford her bills

and she has like minimal overhead

expenses m

like so that was one of the things that

bothered me about this book because

nurses generally make pretty decent

money yes right if she was an MA or

something I might understand a little

bit but like they say repeatedly that

she's a nurse and so it's very confusing

that she can't afford to feed herself

and pay her utility bill like yeah I

don't get it um and she doesn't even

have a car payment because she drives

her mom's old car

so it's just like one of those things

but also I'm like why would you buy an

apartment oh I guess that's the other

part of it is like the taxes on the

apartment but cuz they mentioned that at

one point but

like you are you are a very poor Steward

of your money yes like of the the money

your parents left you like

really but that's

that's we will suspend belief for many

things including including her financial

situation no I love that we're both like

no it's cuz we think a lot of nurses

right we do every nurse I know is great

and like is wonderful yeah like they

might not be driving a Rolls-Royce but

I'm like they they lead very comfortable

lives yes

yes so yeah ever just is is a bad nurse

is my take yeah she's a bad nurse cuz

she's about to

shift so her bestie comes over and is

talking to her she offers her

loan Everly refuses but then she's like

well what about what if you take a

roommate this place has a second bedroom

that has its own bathroom that could be

the perfect solution and so they come up

with a plan that she's going to hang the

sign at her gym um so that that way she

can call the gym for references it'll be

like somebody

she's kind of thinking they'll live a

healthier lifestyle and not be like

sloppy if they go to the gym I was like

that's being super generous to Jim Bros

but okay yeah I'm like I really think it

depends on what gym you remember at like

if we're going to Golds maybe be careful

no offense but

like you know I don't know if the random

Planet Fitness where I can't name a

single person there is really mm-m

I'm like that cuz it's not necessarily

and I could be wrong here but like it's

not giving the energy of like a crossfit

box where like like it is your community

and you know all of the people like it's

like oh she works out there yeah I go

like once a month I'm sure it's a great

workout you know yeah she's like I use

the treadmill like yeah so um I but I I

applaud the it is some thought until

like I don't want to I don't want to

post it on references

right so um the next day Jackson is

really pissed at himself for not

following her the night before um but he

needed space to like get his head right

cuz he was really thrown off by their

whole interaction and he's thinking she

probably went out the night before like

she probably went to party blah blah

blah which she didn't she hung out at

home with her best friend and so he's

shocked to see her come out before 700

a.m. he's like what but I assumed she

would be sleeping until noon but like

here she

is um so she goes to the gym and he is

watching from afar sees her hang the

sign um and after she leaves in her work

uniform he goes in and bribes the gym

manager to let him pay cash for a single

month membership and the guy's like I'll

handle everything personally if anybody

gives you any trouble like have them

call me like I'll vouch for you like he

gives the kid

it's like a 22-year-old kid he gives him

like a significant amount of money to

like do what he's asking um and then he

um takes down Everly's sign cuz he

realizes it's a perfect opportunity to

get close to her in private so that he

doesn't have to worry about humans

seeing her have a seizure he's like well

great

perfect okay but the injection is not

going to kill her and she'll still need

a roommate he could have left the sign

I might be missing the point

here maybe a little bit but that's okay

but I mean the point all I'm saying is

it'll just stop her from shifting it

won't kill her it won't kill her right

she will still be in a

financially so he's fully intending to

move in like not just going to see it

he's fully intending to move

that feels like so much effort for a man

who was going to run past her and shoot

her up with a needle and now he's like

let me do a whole roommate interview and

background check y let me compile

references why not just schedule an

initial interview and inject her then

yeah there are a lot of issues with this

story like the general plot is actually

really interesting and pretty cool but

then some of the details you're like why

nope yeah yeah so like I'm like buddy

let me help you ruin her life right I

was like just take a tour of the

apartment and inject her there why are

we being complicated leave her on the

floor yeah no one will know right and

then she can just do the next roommate

interview right but now she won't

because you took down her sign it's rude

um that's my biggest issue with Jackson

far it's the next level Petty for you so

um Everly is getting to work she gets a

call from some guy about the apartment

she's super shocked that it happened so

fast and she's kind of like thrown off

about it but she does get the info for

his references and says that she'll call

back later to set up a time to do a

tour so she calls her best friend um who

says that she's out of town because

bestie was going to be there with her so

she didn't have a stranger in the

apartment so she suggests meeting him

somewhere neutral um and like getting to

know him a little bit before scheduling

the tour for the next day I got to say

that is a great call I once had a my

cousin and I were roommates in Nashville

my cousin was getting married and moving

out I was doing roommate interviews and

a dude came over and I could not get him

out of my house fast enough and was so

unsettled and like my like my cousin was

like how'd that interview go I was like

I never want to be around that person

again I have to move yeah and to the

point where my cousin like do I need to

come back and like sleep at the

apartment tonight and I'm like no like I

think I'm I think I'm good but

like no a neutral location yep let's

meet him first check his references and

then we'll decide if we're going to go

through the whole rig some could go back

and tell [ __ ] like 24y old Chelsey

right maybe I'm have someone with you

yes yeah PSA that's that's our other PSA

for today and the bestie whose name is

Diana is like the the true hero in the

whole thing she's the only voice of

reason and she's the only one that makes

any sense she's like hey maybe get a

roommate hey maybe meet them in a safe

space yeah hey I'll be there with you

like let's do this together I got you

babe we all deserve a best friend like

that we do we all deserve a Diana so um

all the references came back great so

the next morning she meets Jackson at

the gym juice bar she figures it's an

area they're both familiar with plenty

of people around great great makes sense

so there are a bunch of Meat Heads

making a ton of noise um and all the

women in the the gym are like ogling

them and she's just getting like kind of

increasingly irritated by the whole

scene um and then finally the guy

getting the most attention comes over to

her um and she recognizes him as The

[ __ ] from the park that that yelled

at her um and she's noticing like he's

extremely hot but also extremely rude to

her still and um he is super genuine and

kind with the girl who's working the

juice bar like when he orders his

smoothie or whatever and as soon as he

like turns to look at her he's like Dead

face like hatred pouring off of him you

want me as a roomate or not right well

it's like Jackson you are the worst at

this like he supposedly Works in um

security and has done missions for the

pack and for various people who've hired

them in the past and I'm like no you

haven't buddy you can't get through a

five minute conversation with a girl

that you need to move in with without

being an [ __ ] you're terrible you

don't need to move in with I'm sorry you

don't he literally could have put it cuz

it can either be injected or ingested he

could have put it in her smoothie at the

Club at the gym nobody would have

known I'm so annoyed I know I know I

know I know I know okay so he's still

being an [ __ ] to her even though he

mm 1850 a month just let me move the

[ __ ] in basically yes so he tells her

that he's here for work he doesn't know

how long he's going to be here but he's

willing to pay more since it will be a

shortened lease and like whatever

whatever but he also says um that he

doesn't have time for quote

Dianes and um so she needs to like keep

her hands to herself and she's

like

um she gets Jackson she gets real mad

real mad dare you dare I say big mad I I

I think you should dare I think you

should I I will dare then so she then

tells him the apartment isn't available

and just storms out but she's like super

proud of herself like I nailed that walk

away like hell yeah she didn't did she

she didn't she gets to her car and

realizes she left her bag with her phone

and her keys and her wallet yep at the

at the table yep she's like well I'm not

going back in there

so she like I'm just going to stand by

my car I guess cuz she still has like a

little bit of like a a self-satisfied

moment because he looked so shocked when

he she told him off and she's like hell

yeah I'm not ruining that by going back

in there I'll just wait by my car I've

done worse things she's like

whatever she's like how long how long

will he be there I can Outlast him it's

fine she's like gym closes at 9: no I

don't really know but like that's what I

imagine so um Jackson is beating himself

up hard for being a dumbass he finally

realizes he [ __ ] it yeah um and uh she

shut down really hard on him she had

been trying to be kind and like sweet

and stuff um and then when she shut down

he started calling her icy

spice icy spicy is how I really wanted

to say

it I don't know what icy spicy is like a

winter mint perhaps

that's what I want him to really start

calling her winter mint

yes so

anyway hey

coriander not coriander that's good um

how do you know so many spices just off

the cuff like that they all start with C

except for

paprika cumin K Cor

Chipotle Chipotle

adobo oh my God okay um because I'm that

basic white girl that got all of the

like matching glass jars and so I have

all of the alphabetical right labels to

put on each individual

jar okay that makes sense I'm and so as

I've been trying to name them I've been

imagining my well now Rack in my head

all the ones I'm thinking of to be clear

are like Chinese five spice

exactly like no no I'm like taco

seasoning just really isn't a great

nickname hey Ranch powder how you doing

hey

so um he is trying to get himself under

control cuz he just feels so much rage

sitting across from his enemy and like

this person who is a threat to his pack

even though she doesn't know that

they're enemies he's like I know and

like well

and okay hear me he lost his mother in a

very very traumatic way and was injured

at the same time was injured at the same

time right

um given the age he was when that

happened it does feel like a lot of the

rage that he's internalized has been

like the

pack rage and like the like I'm like

good sir like this this girl it happened

25 years ago and she's 25 she wasn't

even yeah she wasn't even born yet when

this happened where is this visceral

anger towards this innocent person

coming from because like that wasn't

like it's not like he's been harboring

this against Everly for 25 years yeah

it's been against the moon family and

her name isn't even Moon anymore I

forgot to mention that it's Everly

Miller and so he is I think what it is

is it's his father's rage he's like so

disconnected from his dad cuz his dad

shut down so hard after the death of his

mate that like their anger towards this

family is the only connection that

Jackson really has with his dad yeah so

I think that that's a big part of it but

he's also just super confused because

nothing is making sense about her like

why does she want a roommate why is she

working as a nurse why does she seem

like so sweet and innocent like none of

this tracks at all um why does she seem

so normal for someone who's supposed to

be such a coldblooded killer threat to

our back what do you what do you think

she should be behaving like like is she

supposed to be like walking around

murdering people and taking candy from

babies like all I'm saying is even KGB

operatives had to work normal jobs

you've seen the Americans you understand

like

what kgp

op literally because I was talking to my

husband about the Americans yesterday

cuz he's never seen it

oh well he started rewatching

Blacklist is that what it's called yeah

yeah um I think and like is her husband

desp like in the first season and so I

was like oh have you ever watched the

Americans and he's like no I was like I

think you'd really like it you should

add it to your

list so yes he he believes that she is

on the level of some kind of

well-trained KGB assassin for how well

she is acting and so he tries to call to

apologize and then realizes that he

still has her bag so he grabs it to go

take it to her and he's like I will be

Charming like I will be Charming like

get it

together so he a whole like brne brown

motivational in the mirror he's like you

will be kind yes you will be witty yes

you will not punch her in the face like

you will be just lovely it feels like it

should be a low bar right and yet but

for him he's still tripping over it he

tries to explain to her that like listen

um I'm just I've been really busy and

I've been really frustrated um with all

of the attention I've been getting like

you saw the women in the the gym like

it's hard for me to move through the

world and like all this sh and all I

could think was

like the arrogance though I'm sorry I'm

sorry

Hannah pause you're saying this fool

went I'm so sorry I was such an [ __ ]

just too many women want me and I've

been so stressed about it

yeah and what kills me is that Everly is

like you know I kind of understand that

like if men were on top of me like that

all the time I'd get really frustrated

too which is like it men and women have

different experiences I think you know

so

okay she's like so sweet and empathetic

about it she's like oh my God I don't

get that kind of attention really but if

I did oh man yeah I'd be really

frustrated

too like I'm just

imagining one I wouldn't I could not

keep a straight face in that but like if

a client like if a like ever told me a

story like that I B

let's let's maybe have a conversation

about our grandos

right like what like hey oh I hadn't

recognize these narcissistic patterns

and traits before and here they are well

then it would be like Chelsea listen it

can never work between us like as soon

as you start to confront

it could never

work I understand the Allure that I hold

but it is it is wild that the those

clients exist they do they really do

they do it is insane yeah and it's so

weird to navigate it is really hard to

be like um like I don't want to say

thank you no thank you because no I

don't want to thank any part of it Oh

you mean this this random person that

I've only ever known via a zoom meeting

link oh

like but you know I'm like oh yeah this

is not this isn't that this is not that

but bless Everly for being such a

sweetheart and being like you know she's

so sweet yeah thank thanks for

explaining it I I Now understand yep my

gosh so she agrees to start over and

they're going to meet up for coffee the

next day and when he gets to the coffee

shop um bestie is there and um he's

trying to be patient about it but he's

just really experiencing so much

pressure from his dad like his dad's

calling him a lot um and so he's just

trying to like get this [ __ ] over with

so he turns on the charm for bestie um

and they all agree to go back to the

apartment um and he's like this is this

is very private that's great no one will

know when I drug her so except her best

friend well bestie is about to leave cuz

that's the whole thing yeah she wasn't

going to go to the apartment with them

just met at the coffee shop with them

well she went and was there when he did

the tour and then when they agreed that

he could move in and she left I see so

he offers way more money um again

because it's going to be shortterm and

um

so yeah does he work where is he getting

all of these funds from so the the pack

that he's a part of owns a security

company and there's like a couple of

other businesses that they own but he

primarily Works security okay so um

Jackson also then leaves and he is

moving in like the next day

so Everly is really panicking about this

whole thing having somebody in her space

um but he's very standoffish and she

can't really put her finger on it but

she's like she feels very tense and like

her hackles are up every time she's

around him um but she tries to push all

that away and just focus on getting him

settled so um he calls her into his

bathroom to explain the shower because

it's like a complicated shower head or

whatever and um she again trips over

nothing and winds up knocking his

toiletry bag down and a bunch of vials

and syringes pour out and she's like ah

the Roid Rage would explain it wouldn't

it she's like that definitely makes

sense um and then she go

oh it's steroids yeah I feel better now

yeah she's like I won't take it

personally then I know what we're up

against okay um so he's again a dick and

just tells her to get out

um so she then is talking to her best

friend they're making plans for Everly's

birthday which is coming up and um she

is just reminding herself that Jackson

is a means to an end like him being

there paying rent it they don't have to

be friends they don't even have to

interact like they just have to exist in

the same space um and so Jackson over

the next few days he's like trying to

find a routine getting into a rhythm and

he hasn't had another opportunity to

inject Everly because she leaves for

work early in the morning she comes home

late in the evening like they're just he

keeps missing

her so he's in the shower trying to come

up with a plan and his bathroom door

just burst open and there's Everly and

um she is shocked but obviously also

checking him out and um that has him

getting hard and he is just really mad

about that pause I'm missing something

why did she just bust open the bathroom

door we're going to find out in a second

okay so she's apologizing and like

stumbling over her words um she forgot

that she had left something in that

bathroom and she had her earbuds in

because she was coming back from a run

so he's usually out of the house at that

time of day so she just assumed he

wouldn't be there and she's not used to

living with anybody and so she just

didn't think about it and just walked

into the

bathroom that is her

explanation okay that's fine keep going

she says it's fine it's not fine so

um

yeah he is hoping that this will

actually present another opportunity for

him to inject her I'm sorry where is he

hiding a syringe while he's in the

shower he put pants on now um nope he

sends her

out and then he puts pants on and takes

a vial and he's like okay um I prefer to

think he had to hide it between his butt

cheeks and the

shower I'm comfortable with that

narrative um for all the other things

I've had to suspend belief for in this

book I can we can hold on to that this

is where it is um so he's like let's

have a glass of wine we're going to

celebrate being roommates let's just

hang out for a little bit um Let's

Pretend This Never Happened it's really

okay and so she's like that's cool thank

you and he puts the drug in her wine and

is planning to inject her once she gets

knocked out from the first dose because

it's more in in wow it's more effective

injected okay um and so he doesn't want

to take any

chances so

um he takes it over to her and he's like

just thinking about her and he's like

God she is really clumsy spice because

she keeps tripping over things and then

he's like but she's also beautiful spice

oh gosh and then he's like shut up idiot

like we have a job to do so he starts

like getting really down on himself

about all of that but he's like let's

just do a toast she's going to drink it

I can get out of here this will all be

over it's going to be okay so he toasts

her but she somehow breaks both of the

glasses on the toast and cuts herself

and um he's like what the [ __ ] like

you've got to be [ __ ] kidding me

right now

like he's really strugg he would be a

horrible spy because he is a horrible

spy he is a horrible spy he's doing a

terrible job so she's bleeding pretty

badly cuz she's got a cut on her thumb

and she goes to like put it in her mouth

and he's like don't do that and she's

like what what he's like there might be

glass in

it and then he's like why did I stop her

like if she got any bit of that drug it

would have been good why did I do that

and so he's just really really irritated

with himself um and she is like mumbling

to herself about not understanding why

she's so clumsy and like what what's

going on and he's

like she knows why she's so clumsy she's

getting close to her first shift like

she knows everybody

knows um so then he is cleaning her up

and winds up licking her blood for some

reason and does is like he starts

freaking out cuz he like feels a pole to

her um and oh because it's his mate yeah

what I know but he doesn't put put that

situation together um he's like nope

don't like that it's because she's

probably a double Alpha and is way too

powerful I got to get out of

here so whatever I really freaking out

um and um yeah I would be freaked out as

well if I cut myself and someone my

roommate licked up my blood the blood

off my finger yeah that would be awkward

wouldn't it um she's like I know she

feels this like crazy attraction for him

but like obviously he's a douchebag so

she's just like all over the place

um and

um she he has her his back to her he's

like trying to put space between them

but he doesn't leave the room and she um

apologizes again for breaking the glass

and says that one of her patients died

that day and um she's just having a

really difficult time like she was just

distracted by the death of one of her

patients she had her earbuds in she's

really really sorry she's sorry she

broke the glass like all she does

throughout this whole book is just

apologize really um and

so um

girl she's having a really difficult

time she's actually very sweet um and

then he um starts being really rude to

her again after being really sweet and

cleaning her up and she's like okay so

sweet and gentle one minute and then MH

massive douchebag the next like I'm not

I hate it here um

so she calls her best friend and they

she goes out with best friend MH so then

Jackson the next day he didn't sleep at

all really because he's so upset about

the whole thing and he hears Everly in

the kitchen so um he needs to just go do

this like he like he just he's like if I

don't inject her now I'll never do it

he's like I'm serious about it now um

and so he comes out and um in her little

Hello Kitty pajamas and he's like what

kind of wolf shifting double Alpha wears

Hello Kitty pajamas the [ __ ] someone who

doesn't know they're a shifter yeah

someone who has no earthly idea so she

asked about the scars on his

chest um and because he walked out

shirtless uhhuh yeah and he's like I I

don't like to talk about it and like

shuts her down completely um and when

her phone rings it's a perfect

opportunity

um to to dose her smoothie that she was

making but he just can't bring himself

to do it and he's like what the [ __ ] is

wrong with me and he's like very upset

so um he knows that he's missing

something because her emotions are too

sincere but like she's a moon so even

though she's calling herself something

else he knows who she is like he he

knows that she's evil

so um

yeah he's like he's he's a disaster so

he's like feels he's betrayed everyone

he loves he's betrayed his mother's

memory he's betraying his pack like all

this [ __ ] because he can't dose this

girl so

um he calls his uncle after Everly

leaves for work he calls his uncle um

and he's like I don't think she knows

she's a wolf like I don't think she

knows anything about any of this like

she is truly innocent like I can't do

this and his uncle tells him that um he

gets it that Jackson is a really good

man but if he doesn't do it to restrict

her wolf before she shifts for the first

time then he's going to have to kill her

because when her wolf takes over she's

going to be absolutely bloodthirsty and

uncontrollable just like her parents and

so like he if he doesn't he's going to

save her life by dosing her is what

Uncle tells

her um H

yeah so he's like I get it but it still

his uncle is emotionally manipulating

him he's not okay even a little bit just

okay just just had to ask yeah he should

be he really should be um because I

think you I think you probably know so

this story is interesting in some ways

and in others is

like I know exactly where we're going I

got it I get it okay so anyway is at

work she's doing her thing um and her

boss is like abusing one of the patients

like pulling on her hair and stuff and

Everly starts to feel something in her

chest that doesn't feel right

um and she starts to realize that her

boss has been abusing this particular

patient for a long time because she sees

like older bruises when the boss leaves

the room and so um the boss and tells

her that she's being written up for

questioning her um with the patient and

so um the the boss goes to to write her

up and Everly won't back down but she

really does not feel right like she

feels something is really wrong and

she's like I can smell her anger and her

fear and that she had oatmeal for

breakfast like the [ __ ] she's like I

don't I am in fact an insane person

she's like I'm an insane person

I have old factory hallucinations

hallucinations yes she's like am I

having a stroke or a hallucination who

knows I did a crisis assessment Once on

This like high school kid who said he

was having old factory hallucinations

and I it was the most interesting I was

like I don't what was he smelling

that's the thing it was very

vague um he's like I smell something

yeah

smelly like literally is how it felt

like the assessment went yeah uh cuz I

feel like he was also like yeah

sometimes I feel like a hand holding my

wrist

down can can you move your wrist when

that happens I don't

know okay I'm this is this is not a

great crisis assessment I don't know how

to help you here like I really want to

but all of these answers are so vague

and so just

like you know I never thought to try

I've been I've been smelling

things like like markers like what Like

Glue right you're like okay so when you

smelled the smells was it after you had

intentionally huffed some other like

WD40 like

like yeah it was the the it truly

sounded like a kid who'd done drugs for

the first time and he was like hands are

weird you

know he's like I I noticed that I can

like see colors

like yeah and I'm like okay so

like w does that make you want to hurt

yourself or hurt anyone else or what are

we doing here like how do we what's our

response to this and he's like I don't

know it's just weird right and I'm like

I don't I don't think we need a hospital

for this no maybe maybe some water and a

nap you know like maybe maybe get a

banana in you just some fresh

fruit get a little son you'll be fine

you just needed some potassium that was

the whole

problem avocados have more potassium

than bananas fun fact what yeah that is

a fun fact because I can't eat bananas

they give me nightmares I don't know why

I I don't know huh I don't know why

Hanah we've been friends for 3 years I

really feel like you've been burying the

lead here yeah I can eat banana bread

fine but a banana will give me a

nightmare yeah and they're truly bizarre

so the most bizarre one that I've ever

had after eating a

banana because every few years I'm like

I bet I could though like that's

ridiculous right like that's ridiculous

and so I'll have one and then I deeply

regret it but the most bizarre one was

that I was at the daycare where I used

to work okay and um Sarah Palin was

there and of course she was teaching my

class of um four-year-olds how to ski

shoot

and in the playground obviously and the

funny thing is I know exactly what

outfit she's

wearing it's the only one she really

wears it's the only one it's the only

outfit she has when she's not on a press

circuit yes yes it's the one you know

the one the vest it's the vest it's the

[ __ ] best it's the vest but her hair

is still the same up yeah in the glasses

yes so that that's happening and all of

a sudden there is a tornado coming and

so I am panicking trying to get all the

kids into the building right I don't

know where Sarah went um she was gone so

then did she become the wicked witch is

that where this no like maybe she was

the tornado who knows but and her feed

rolled back under the

house once I took her

shoes the same pair of hiking boots that

she wears every time red glittery ruby

red hiking

boots Sarah they're very practical so

got a great tread on them you

know so one of the kids takes off and so

I chase the kid cuz I'm freaking out

like this kid can't die on my watch

right so I like scoop her up and toss

her in the door and then they close the

door and they leave leave me out there

and I'm just standing there and there's

tornado coming I'm like what do I do now

and a very large man with very long

locks comes and just gives me a hug and

we just we just said the serenity prayer

and then I assume we died because the

tornado came and then I woke

up that's what happens when I eat

bananas okay so like

I feel like you could have a very

successful YouTube or Tik Tok Channel

just called like banana nightmares or

something banana night the the only time

you post is when you eat a banana and

you're just like telling the story of

the banana dream the next day you know

maybe I

will I I mean they're they're

something fascinating yeah they are

they're okay anyway but

where where were well Jackson's having a

nightmare oh okay Jackson is having a

nightmare so we're cutting to Jackson

afteron uh Everly realized the patient

was being abused didn't feel good in her

chest was getting written up all that

stuff right so he is we're also flashing

back in time he hears her on the phone

hears her leaving to go to work um he's

her making birthday plans and it's like

oh [ __ ] she's going to shift

today um today

I done [ __ ] up it's not just like

around the birthday it's on the bir he's

like so I done [ __ ] up so um he

follows her

um and

um

so we left Everly at work right here's

her she leaves she comes back and then

she decides to go for a run Jackson

decides to follow her

so um she is going really fast while

she's on this run and he's like M yeah

she's about to shift this is faster than

human speed she's shifting in a park

full of humans good love it great so um

and at this point Jackson well his uncle

obviously told him you need to kill her

or you need to give her the injection

before she shifts or you'll have to kill

her Jackson is like very aware she does

not know what's like she just is thinks

she is a human who is now going to break

the Olympic right like trial time she's

breaking records yeah yes yes uh okay so

he is very aware of the issue and it's

like oh [ __ ] she's about to shift she

does not know what's about to happen we

are in public she could hurt a lot of

could hurt a lot of people I I'm

guessing it's a I need to help fix this

I'm hoping that yes so he takes off she

shifts in the woods so she had veered

off the path into some trees shifted um

and um she starts making this like

rumbling noise and his wolf answers and

he's like what the [ __ ] are you doing

buddy like that's weird um but he pins

her so that she can't get to the humans

um cuz there's like a playground right

there so he like pins her so that she

can't and he has a danger no

okay and gets her he gets her into a

choke hold and he's like I could I could

just go ahead and finish it like I could

just go ahead and kill her but then he

just can't um and um this is really his

last chance because she's vulnerable

from her first shift but she shifts back

as he's like choking her and um she's

crying and he's

like

well [ __ ] so he goes over and steals a

blanket from some somebody who's not

looking to like wrap her up because

she's now

naked um and uh I appreciate that her

clothes did not spontaneously return

they did not I feel like there was a

book I read where they were trying to

exp they could shift with their clothes

because of like the magic that they used

while other people shifted and were

naked because of like how they shift so

half of the people would shift and like

return clothed and I'm like no commit or

don't I don't think you can be wearing

denim and then turn into a bird and then

suddenly be wearing denim again in your

human form yeah that's difficult for me

to process unless that little bird is

wearing denim pants I don't want it oh

my God I would like to see that drawing

paranormal books would be so much more

fun if

everyone an wearing tiny clothes likea

just a little bird wearing tiny pants

Suzanne Ray if you could assist me with

this Suzanne listen and Charlene I just

don't know how to say your last name

Charlene heart heart

heart we're so

sorry we're trying to disrespect but I

said something about SKC New York the

other day and so now I'm like harn I

don't know that sounds wrong I don't

know it's like all of the random lakes

in

Florida yes okobi Oki fi that's a swamp

anyway so um he wraps her up in a

blanket he's like I got to get her back

to the car yes and so she is absolutely

flipping the [ __ ] out like AB like of

course she is flipping the [ __ ] out as

anyone would so Jackson is carrying her

to the car and all she can remember is

running one one minute and then like

naked on the ground with Jackson on top

of her the next her the next yeah she's

like um the [ __ ] um and he's like just

stay calm just stay calm like just be

cool be cool I will help you get out of

public right don't be suspicious like

just be cool so they get stopped by an

old woman and yet them going across the

field going don't be suspicious don't be

suspicious in while she's naked in a

blanket right right and he's cradling

her to his chest she's crying her

eyeballs out yeah it's going to look a

bit sus no matter how how much you tell

her don't be Jackson is going to be

arrested like it doesn't happen but this

old woman is like oh my gosh is she okay

and he's like diabetic emergency and um

great cover yep and the doesn't explain

why she's naked but great cover well

she's like all wrapped up in the blanket

so you can't see her but still okay

she's not wearing any shoes but whatever

so the old woman has a little dog with

her and the dog is like barking and

growling at Everly and so Everly growls

back because she can't stop it and

Jackson just yells I think she's

convulsing and like runs

away which I thought was hilarious

um like oh no like got to get her out of

here it's the diabetes we got to

go what we run fast we can diabat

this yeah um so they make it back to the

apartment and Jackson will not speak

okay um and she is extremely horny and

is like sniffing all up on him and she's

standing there naked and confused and

scared and um she has no idea what's

going on and so she can smell that he's

turned on too and finally he tells her

that she's a wolf and that he's been

following her in case she changed and

because she would be a danger to the

humans and um we kind of buried the lead

there Jackson left out a little bit of

it and I've been following you for your

own safety and the safety of the

humans I'm good and for the safety of

others I've kept the syringe in my

pocket have you heard that um Tick Tock

sound where this girl is singing she's

no longer a danger to herself or others

no I'll find it my sister sent it to me

it's very funny yes somebody made a cake

and the sound

is playing behind it and it just says no

longer a danger to myself or others and

they're like lighting a candle

incredible I'll find it but anyway so um

she

is she finally steps back because she is

realizing that he knew all along so like

it breaks through all of her horniness

and fear that like he knew that she was

going to shift and he must know much

more about her than he has led her to

believe and he's not telling her so

she's just like okay I'm just going to

go shower [ __ ] this

so um but being an [ __ ] because he's

just so hot she was like that makes

sense this one she can connect all the

dots on yeah yeah yeah okay sorry keep

going yeah so no Jackson is also

freaking out and he is like Baby Spice

turned into Scary Spice

[ __ ] a dude and um she's definitely a

double Alpha and way more powerful than

they realized and so um so as they

speculated but also let me like she's a

double Alpha she's more powerful but

like considering they been like she'll

be like if they're a double Alpha be

bloodthirsty and crazy with one breath

she'll kill us all and you're like what

well so the the thing seems to be

because it comes up in later books in

this series that follow other people is

that um there are not really any double

Alphas because as soon as they are

recognized they are killed immediately

so like nobody knows what kind of power

a double Alpha has they're just killing

all of them for fear of the unknown yeah

so it's like an urban legend at this

point that's a shitty approach yeah it's

pretty awful it's pretty awful um so he

is freaking out Jackson's freaking out

he's like I am failing in a spectacular

fashion but she smells so

good so um his phone your scented mate

buddy yep yep MH MH but he can't get

there that even with the smell even with

the smell he's not getting there I feel

like half of the Paranormal wolf shifter

books like as soon as they smell them

they're like you're minding you're no

one else's and if anyone ever [ __ ]

looks at you I'll slice their throat

like that is a bit of an overreaction

and this man smells her and it's like

well that's Pleasant anyway back to what

I was watching anyway let me answer this

call for my dad like that's literally

what happens so then the next so later

in the day Everly wakes up she realizes

she basically slept the entire day um

and she gets out of bed and finds

Jackson dressed up for a night out and

she's like the [ __ ] are you doing and

he's like well you're going out with

your friend I'm going with you she's

like

you're not invited where's your invite

my guy and he's like you don't

understand like you're still in your

first shift it's a full moon like we

need to be really careful here I'm just

coming as protection I promise like I'm

not going to ruin this night for

you um so uh her best friend shows up

they all go out um

and he's like oh my God she's so

beautiful is the whole thing so they out

to dinner and they have actually a

really nice time like a really lovely

time all together um is it just the

three of them okay and Everly keeps

reminding her herself that Jackson is a

liar like he is he is a liar he's hiding

things from her so no matter how hot he

is or how good he smells like she's not

we're not getting into that good for you

girl hold those boundaries yeah my my

guards say she needs to keep her guard

up even though he's a smoke show

so um I don't know

so um my husband and I just started the

new season of Love is Blind yes and

there's a girl and she is tiny and cute

and adorable and beautiful um but ended

up in a love triangle and she definitely

um assumed the clothes and should not

have and he went for the other girl and

she's just like telling him off in the

pots and is like you're going to need

your epip pen when you see how hot I am

like I don't think she said hot like

when you're going to you're when you see

what you missed out on like just one of

the you're going to choke when you see

and I'm like but not even like you're

going to need an epip pin you're going

to need your epip pin this [ __ ] knows

he has allergies and is using it to

insult him which I thought was [ __ ]

hilarious that is amazing you're going

to need your epip PIN when you see me

and everything you missed out on I'm

like good for

her just really yeah like I looked at

him like when you choke and see this

smoke show was like kind of

like you're going to choke on them words

son yep I get it we'll be very curious

because we have just made it through the

Pod so I have no idea what happens in

the rest of the season that's very

exciting please renew your net going

have to getf I'm going to have to get

Netflix again I will a coworker texts me

at 6:30 in the morning go Chelsea it's

the best season in year

that okay I'm like the [ __ ] are you

doing at 6:30 what a strong open but

also maybe go back to bed yeah whatever

Hanah what are you doing at 6:30 in the

morning I would bet reading because how

well are you going to hit 300 books a

year I am reading because I can't sleep

but I'm also not texting you about love

is blind or anything else at 6:30 in the

morning you can I could I won't I'm not

good at ping before nine no yeah no in

my general approach to texting I am

unfortunately that person that I'm like

I'm either going to

respond within 5 minutes or five weeks

and I apologize and then at some point

it just gets we we too much time has

passed it is weirder for me to respond

now well what I feel weird about is that

when I don't sleep sometimes I'll be

like oh my God I wonder how so and so is

doing didn't she have that thing and

then I want to text people to be like

hey I'm thinking about you what's going

on with that thing but it's 3:00 in the

morning so I'm not going to do that so

sometimes I will schedule a text for the

next morning at like 9:30 so that it's

not like oh I was thinking about you at

3:00 a.m. like um when I was pregnant

and had like horrible insomnia and I

like it wasn't even where I was like

laying there reading in the middle of

the night I just like [ __ ] it I may as

well get through my work inbox and so at

like 3:00 a.m. I'd go into my office and

sit down at my desk and start responding

to emails and I was like I'm going to

look like a crazy person so I would

delay them I would schedule all of the

emails to be within normal business

hours all of those were written at 3:00

a.m. I love that you get it yeah but

then by the time I fell back asleep I

like had a little bit more like

flexibility in the morning cuz I'm like

oh I've responded to my whole inbox

there's like nothing immediately needed

from me I can ease in yes yeah I can

ease into it kind of worked great okay

I'm sorry they're they're having a good

time great time a great okay not a good

a great time great time and um Jackson

is wrestling with the fact that even

though her parents killed his mother

that she has done nothing wrong like she

is lovely and he's supposed to kill her

so after dinner they decide to go to a

bar and he realizes that this is really

bad because Everly is putting out mating

pheromones from her first shift and so

um

they wind up almost getting into a fight

with a group of men and he like whisks

her out and um they start going at it in

the cab on the way home she like mounts

him essentially and he um decides that

he's just going to finger her because he

can't have her he's like so I'm not

it'll be totally fine if I just get her

off with my hands

um it feels like the loopholes in the

southern Christian Church

100% oh no I'm like oh God's

loophole you mean the butthole yes the

uh gar funcle and o is that who yes [ __ ]

me in the ass cuz I love Jesus yes yeah

yeah mhm great sketch yeah for the

record it is very good it's so funny yes

um and when you grew up in the southern

Conservative Christian Church it hit H

it does hit different harder than you

expect it hits different I still have a

highman none of it counted like Okie

do I knew a girl who was leaving to go

on the mission field for a year and the

night before she left she was like we

had anal that way I'm still a virgin on

the mission field I'm like I really I

don't know if the Hyman is the most

important I feel like we're focusing on

the wrong part yeah yeah yeah if the if

the highman is the the connection to

God no I hated that

sentence okay all right good good good

yeah so

anyway um he freaks out as he's like

getting her off and like shoves her away

and he like this is a really bad idea

and she wants answers and he like he

can't give them and there's all this

tension and he's like I don't know what

the [ __ ] I'm doing so um she asks like

okay so if you're not going to [ __ ] me

why didn't you let me go home with

somebody else because I would have like

and he's like yeah that's why and um

he's like well it's not too late you

could go back out and pick somebody up

stop it Jackson no yep yep yep yep yep

yep and like he would be if if she tried

to leave yeah to go [ __ ] someone else

well and her response is cool thank you

for that go pack your [ __ ] get out by

the time I get back you should be gone

yeah your rent money is not yep worth

this [ __ ] and he's like what and

he's like but but women think I'm God's

Gift she's kicking me

out and then he's like of course she's

kicking you out you're a [ __ ]

idiot and just like follow her inside

like a sad little puppy so Everly is so

incredibly angry she can't even like

form thoughts but she's also super horny

which apparently is part of the first

shift and so she wants to both beat the

[ __ ] out of Jackson and climb him like a

tree so

um she just keeps telling him you need

to get the [ __ ] out you need to get the

[ __ ] out I need to go for a run so um

he's like you can't leave and she's like

why why you told me to go pick somebody

up why can't I leave and he still won't

answer her and so she's like really good

really good talk leave your key under

the mat I'm

out so Jackson's dad calls again they

felt Everly shift because she's so

powerful and so he is quote big mad that

Jackson hasn't killed her yet well he

hasn't yeah he's he's been a terrible

assassin he's doing a very terrible job

on multiple levels so um he realizes

that he can't do it but he can't tell

his dad that because then dad is just

going to send somebody else he's like so

he's feeling very protective he's really

confused so he he leaves but he doesn't

he's just he really hasn't he's very

he's very stupid oh my God yeah he's

very stupid like I just want to like

clap in Jackson's face and be like get

there faster figure it the [ __ ] out bro

so he he doesn't get in his car to leave

he goes for a walk and then he starts to

hear screams and he's like there it is

and he takes off and Everly has shifted

in wolf form in the middle of downtown

and people are flipping the [ __ ] out um

so

he I'm also like okay Jackson if you

were that worried and you knew that this

was the inevitable outcome follow yes

for as much as you were following her

kind of the worst yeah in a lot of ways

like I really want to root for Jackson

but I'm like Jackson you are doing

yourself no favors none not a single one

so um she hears him talking like he runs

up and she hears him and runs at him and

people start screaming like you got to

move you got to run like and he just

doesn't move and starts petting her like

a dog and just kind of talking to her

like she puts his her paws up on his

shoulders and he's like hey honey like

you're okay everything's okay and he's

like it's just a dog like while he's

like walking her away he is the worst

he's so

bad and so they get her into some trees

and she shifts again and he has his

duffel bag because he had packed his

clothes so he like pulls out something

for her to put

on and um he walks her home and more

freaking out and Jackson finally starts

answering some of her questions um all

all W wolves reach their Prime at 25

um and it's harder for her because she

doesn't have a pack he tells her that

her parents were exiled um when he was a

child he doesn't lie exactly he just

says that he was very young when it

happened so even though he knows the

whole story he's kind of like I was very

young when she asks what happened um so

that he doesn't answer um also like

there's clearly something where he

doesn't remember all of what happened

right which I interpreted as

like the standard Trope of

he'll have the memory at some point and

unlock the oh this is what actually

happened right and her parents were

exiled he does know that that's why and

then they were killed only about 5 years

ago so they moved around constantly to

like oh be on the RO I missed that well

I didn't bring it up because we didn't

really know it so Everly is now putting

together that that's why her parents

were running her whole life that's why

they never settled anywhere was because

they were afraid they were going to be

found and then they were in fact found

so when she used the life insurance

money it wasn't money that had been

sitting there since she was born it was

like she got that within the last five

years yeah got it yes yeah so um he

tells her that all new wolves all they

want is to feed or [ __ ] and that he's

going to help her and she's like hey you

right she's like why you've been a

colossal douchebag from the moment I met

you like why um valid response so you're

you're just going to be nice to me now

to get in my pants this is really cool I

love this journey for both of us like

get the [ __ ] away from me um and he's

like I'm just trying to keep things safe

I'm just going to help you get through

this like I don't have any ulterior

motive and she's like sure um except

killing you or right loving you forever

right which will it be so um what what

if it end what if the whole book ended

with him just killing

her that would be refreshing I don't

know if I could forgive you for that

even though you didn't write it if you

led me on this whole journey and he just

[ __ ] kills

every I don't I don't know if I could

trust you again who will Who will know

we I've never trusted Rebecca yaros

after she killed someone yeah and I like

like with like Kindle like first of the

month like books or however first of the

month like their Bone

Thugs no oh my god oh great song You

excellent um I've downloaded other books

by that author and every time I go to

read them I go I can't risk it again the

tra response the Betrayal the drama

response oh my God okay sorry so so they

[ __ ] yeah that's where we are what yeah

would we call this their solidifying

[ __ ] no no we would not like it's hard

and dirty and fast and it's like

literally clearly just to like keep her

wolf together at Bay

yeah um so she bites him as she comes

but or tries to but he like pulls her

hard away from him um and flips her over

so that she can't bite him again cuz she

doesn't realize she doesn't know okay so

um so she can feel that he's about to

pull out of her and she like clamps down

on some internal muscles and won't let

him and um there was a girl on

Temptation Island who said she had that

skill and I thought about it a lot where

she said she she goes I I can clench so

hard a man can't get

out what I

is that supposed to be like a an

attractive thing like a good thing no

it's not right I'm like oh I didn't

realize you lived in the Omega verse

right right right I've locked it yeah he

nodded inside me and it locked and now

we're in this position for at least 30

minutes right oh my God oh my God all I

could think was like that's very

different from a pop and lock but not I

guess not that different it's different

it's not that different

sorry I'm so

sorry not not that but yeah did no some

just a little there's some

differences it's a VIN diagram it's a

VIN diagram oh my God okay where were we

oh my God we need to land This Plane

this is going forever okay so he's like

I can't come inside you cuz you'll get

pregnant she's like I'm on birth control

don't worry about it and he's like um

I'm sorry you shifted do you think your

birth control works on a wolf uhhuh

exactly it it would never on a wolf yeah

[ __ ] he just said it with so much

attitude it just got me I was hoping we

could move faster we will now I will not

bring it up again we're 50 EP we yes you

will not in this episode this

episode you're like I know we're 50

episodes in but not anymore on this one

not in this episode just the next book

where a character is named or they are a

wol I said it worse okay so um she's

like I'll get the morning after pill

don't worry about it he's like you don't

Cal get it so he cleans her up um she

feels really nice like being cuddled up

with him but she's like this is just sex

we're just getting through my first

shift it's just sex so then he puts her

in the bed and leaves and she's like

good that's good that's a good reminder

not to not to have any feelings MH um

Jackson sits up all night waiting for

her to come like pawing at his door and

she never does and he's like pouting

about it

so you mean this [ __ ] in

heat exactly so um [ __ ] Jack he's

like she tried to bite me and he's like

that could have been her trying to kill

me but I don't think so I think I think

it was meeting behavior um which she

wouldn't understand and he's like if

she's pregnant my dad will kill the baby

if Everly even lives enough to have it

like this is really bad um and so

um uh

he she's really anxious he finally gets

goes out of the room the next morning

she's really anxious um about

controlling her wolf and he gives her

some very sweet like stuff about it and

um she's like holding herself back and

he realizes

like she's gaining control quicker than

he thought but also that she's putting

up a lot of walls towards him and he's

like I should be glad about that why am

I being a bit I he is he's a [ __ ]

Jackson is a [ __ ] he's a [ __ ] and um

he's telling himself that like this is

just easy [ __ ] like don't worry about

it like that's the conversation he's

having with himself he's disgusting so

then

um he he's like teasing her like they're

having like a cute moment and he's like

he's all over the place so then anyway

what he's all over the place he's all

over the place he can't get himself

together okay so Everly is

um at work she's having a good time and

then she there's another runin with her

boss who is very obviously abusing a

patient and so um she starts to feel

herself shift and she's trying really

hard to gain control and she like calls

out in her brain um for Jackson she's

like I need help through their bond

correct so Jackson's camped out outside

her office he shows up Saves the Day

pulls her out everything's great um he e

drops on the boss and basically they are

going to say that Everly is the one

that's been abusing the

patients um that's what like the plan

the boss has come up with um so they go

to um need to pin the blame on other

people if you just like don't do it

don't abuse the patience right which

would be the ideal um but that's not

where we are like aam's Razer so so

Jackson is very very sweet he's like

we're going to get through this

everything's going to be okay and um she

starts to wonder why her parents never

told her that she's a wolf like how

could they just let this happen to her

cuz she's so confused well and

especially like they passed away when

she was 20 right they had plenty of time

they had some

time

so Jackson says it's probably for her

protection okay um and they start

sharing a really sweet moment where he's

talks about how his mom died and his

uncle is really the only one who stepped

up to care for him and stuff um I'm sure

he is and she reminds herself that like

this is not a thing and so she doesn't

ask any followup she's like we're not

connecting mhm so

um then she falls

asleep she's full of questions he

answers some of them um but not

revealing how tied their history really

is um and he takes her out to run as a

wolf like takes her into the woods they

have a really sweet moment um and still

doesn't realize their mates nope n oh my

God so they're um they're having a great

great time they bang this is a

solidifying [ __ ] when they're out in the

woods um and she is um she realizes that

he has her pin so she can't bite him cuz

he still hasn't explained that biting

him is mating behavior so she's like she

realizes it um so she bites his lip

instead of biting his neck um and her

wolf immediately like claims him as soon

as she tastes his blood um and so then

when they're back at the apartment

Jackson's flipping the [ __ ] out because

it's too late like The Mating bond has

already started so even though he hasn't

claimed her back she has claimed him and

so it's like a whole thing well and I

feel like at least in every like

Paranormal shifter book I've ever like

the that Bond naturally progresses right

unless you so like okay she claimed you

you didn't have to claim her for it to

to start yeah yeah so he tells her like

we cannot exchange blood during sex we

cannot do that and um he tries to

explain mating and she's like we'll just

get divorced bro like it's not that big

of a deal and he's like no no like it's

like a

chemical

marriage like I don't know another word

to like you know this is it like there

is no going back from this um and then

my notes say then somehow they're

[ __ ]

again laws so um she asks if all wolves

are like this while while they're

[ __ ] like if all wolves are this big

and this intense and everything and um

he flips out he's like you will never

find out like you will never know that's

it and so yes he's he's clearly not

claiming her yeah clearly not never so

she um wakes up in bed with him she

wants to ask about his scars again um

and finally he says that he was attacked

when he was three um and she cries for

him and just says like I really hope you

got whoever did it like I really hope

that you got whoever did it and he says

yes but refuses to discuss it further so

she doesn't realize like his pack killed

her parents yeah and so that

like yeah they got them right whoops so

um she's horny

again uh but then um she has an email

from work saying she's suspended it's a

whole thing so they go see her best

friend who's the attorney to like deal

with it so Jackson is struggling to

function in general because of all this

and he is growling at any man that gets

anywhere near her um and he's very

distracted by the is that like like I

feel like some books like oh until the

bond is like fully imp place they're

like more possessive more territorial

that's what it seems like but he doesn't

even seem to really ful understand that

the bond has started like he's still in

denial hoping that like they've avoided

it somehow so because he's really stupid

he really so um his dad called and

basically told him that um to come home

that he's sending someone else and that

he is a terrible disappointment to

everyone so um not wrong her bestie puts

a a pi on the whole situation with her

boss tells her not to worry about it um

and Jackson is really distracted like

they're they they're going to lunch

they're walking around town and he's

super duper distracted watching the

street and stuff and

um they when they're getting back to the

apartment parking garage Jackson is

fixated on getting her inside he's like

rushing her inside and

um then he hears someone coming up

behind him but it's too late like he he

missed it and they shoot him in the back

um and his last thought is that he he

failed to protect her um as he feels

himself like dying um so Everly is

struggling against four men she just saw

Jackson be murdered and um she is she

seriously [ __ ] one of them up like real

bad to the point where he is dead and um

she feels some kind of like heat come

from her when she's fighting him and

then um as she's trying to fight the

others they finally inject her with

something and she blacks out what was

the heat we don't know we just know she

felt it this one's dead who knows okay

so um she stops struggling eventually

because she realizes that she has

nothing to fight for because Jackson is

dead and she can't feel her wolf after

they injected her so then she wakes up

in a trunk and they are

um yeah they're they're talking about

how she's a double Alpha she was glowing

she didn't know that when she was

fighting them she was glowing and stuff

and so um I also burn when I glow yeah

yeah it is a common problem yeah so um

oh it's just cuz she was

glowing so so um she finally starts to

feel her fingers and stuff and um the

car stops the trunk opens and she looks

into Jackson's eyes and she's like what

the [ __ ] and then that's the end of the

chapter and then Jackson wakes up in the

garage paramedics are working on him

there are cops everywhere everybody's

trying to talk to him so he did die but

because he's a wolf and because the

silver they used silver bullets because

the silver didn't stay in his system his

body started to repair itself um and

he's coming to terms with the fact that

his father okay them killing him like

his father had to AOC that um yeah like

get Everly at all cost we don't care

about casualties even if the casualty is

my son and he's like yelling for Everly

he's like asking them where's the woman

what happened to the woman and they're

like we're still trying to figure out

this guy who appears to have been mauled

by a an animal and struck by lightning

that one's super confusing and the cops

and the paramedics are like joking

around and he's like okay [ __ ] you guys

so he just gets up and they're like no

you can't like you're going to die and

he's like have a great day everybody

[ __ ] off and like gets in the car and

drives away he's like imagine how Wild

that would be to be the param I know I

was okay time of death

11:57 time of awake and driving away 122

yeah 12:02 you're like he just like told

me to [ __ ] off what we'll continue to

monitor like

what but like that's the energy where

they're all just like flabbergasted

about it but he catches her scent he

knows where they're going so we're back

to Everly um she's being carried through

the woods and she's still pretending to

be incapacitated even though she can

move um because she realizes that it's

Jackson's dad like they're almost

identical but he has a little bit of

silver in his hair and so um he

orchestrated all of it he keeps calling

her Moon which she has never heard that

name before and goes on and on about how

her parents killed his mate

so the 10 men that he has with him are

all family of his mate um and they've

come to watch her die so just as I'm

sorry this is some misplaced rage yeah

she didn't do [ __ ] she wasn't even born

the [ __ ] she wasn't even born and all of

them like they've built out this whole

narrative that she's like this Evil

Genius who's going to kill and hurt all

of them all like she doesn't even know

she literally never would have crossed

paths with them if they hadn't inserted

themselves into her path

literally so um they are coming at her

like his dad starts to come at her and

just as she's about to get up she hears

Jackson's voice um and he tries to

reason with his dad he's trying to talk

him down and then Dad Reveals that they

killed her

parents and um says he should have known

that Jackson would be too weak to kill

her and so all of this is brand new

information to Everly she had no idea

Jackson was sent there to kill her no

idea that his P killed her family so she

starts glowing again and when his dad

comes at her she hits him with a flash

of white light and he like bounces

back so like doesn't kill him doesn't

kill him okay she she on purpose does

not kill him because he's Jackson's dad

so Jackson tries to come to her um but

she speaks into his mind again and says

that he is a betrayer and she never

wants to see him again so she takes off

and steals his car she was like did I

not tell you to leave the key under the

[ __ ] mat a while ago basically yeah

we should have done that the first time

yes so she takes off um into the woods

steals his car cuz he left the keys in

the ignition 24 hours later she's

clearing cleaning her apartment um

trying to get Jackson's scent out of it

um and her best friend has been calling

um and bestie says that she's on her way

over and Everly uh goes to take another

shower but then her uh doorbell goes off

and she's like oh Diana must have come

like straight over but nope it's

Jackson's Uncle the twin to his dad um

and he's leaning on a cane and he's like

I I need to talk to you like there's you

don't have the whole story you need the

rest of this

information so then we go back to

Jackson he's super distraught um his

father still hasn't woken up and he like

really overwhelmed that Everly hates him

okay so the blast knocked his dad out

not just like pushed him back

like but like did take him to okay yeah

so um she has some kind of lightning

power he's like trying to process

through all of this and um so he leaves

his dad to go find his uncle to talk

about it cuz that's like his person so

he goes to his his uncle's cabin and um

he's not there but his work room is

standing open which it never is so he

like walks into it and he sees that his

mother's amulet that's been missing

since her murder is is there and so his

memor you so proud of me for not asking

five minutes in I knew that you wanted

to I knew that you wanted to and I am

really proud of you I really tried you

did so good you did so good what this is

brand new information the uncle the

uncle I didn't see this coming the uncle

you guys the uncle did

it um and so that's when Jackson's

memories become clear and he realizes it

was his uncle um and then he gets a

really bad feeling because he sees

Everly a dress written on a sheet of

paper on the desk and he's like well

[ __ ] so Everly we're back to Everly she

is burning with pain apparently as soon

as she let the uncle in he jabbed her

with a needle um and he tells her that

He adjusted the dose sh so she won't

recover as quickly as she did before um

he takes her phone to text Jackson to

tell

um to tell him to come over uhhuh um and

he um she has no idea what's going on

she's like I I just she tries to warn

Jackson with her mind but she can't

reach him um and she loses Consciousness

so Jackson shows up and finds his uncle

there with a blade to Everly's throat

she's unconscious um uncle does the

villain monologue he killed his mom he

killed the old pack alpha he's been been

manipulating Jackson's dad all these

years

um and to what end because he was

supposed to be Alpha technically he was

older and stronger but because he was

born with a twisted hip they gave it to

his brother and he's been resentful for

his whole life so his whole thing was

like he wanted to be the one in power so

he [ __ ] up his his brother's life and

weakened him and manipulated manipulated

him and all that y okay um so um he's

like but I'm gonna be a a hero for

killing Everly cuz I'm going to tell all

of them that she killed you in a fit of

rage and I Came Upon it and killed her

so that'll be fun and I will be the

ultimate hero

yay um so um Jackson's like just let me

take her like we can live in Exile

you'll never see us again like just let

me take her um and the uncle's just like

not going to agree to that he's not but

Jackson does see that Everly's fingers

are starting to move and so he hears in

his mind now and so they attack and she

basically disintegrates his uncle with

her lightning like he's like a pile of

Ash

um I guess that's like the double Alpha

power yes and as all of that's going on

the uncle stabs Jackson in the heart and

so he is for Real dying this time he

hadn't even fully recovered from his

previous

injury but she somehow heals him like is

holding him and heals

him and um she tells him that she needs

him to leave that um she can't get over

the role he played in her parents murder

and that he tried to kill her and um she

just needs him to go and which feels

like the

most realistic in the most reason yeah

the most reasonable I'm sure they're

going to have a happy ever after but

like I do feel like in my heart this is

the appropriate ending for the book yeah

because he his thought is like I love

her and I would do anything for her and

I guess that includes leaving her and so

he honors her request okay and

leaves so

um 7 weeks later um Bessie and Everly

are hanging out Everly is now the

director of the nursing home everything

came out that the the boss actually

happened to be like a um angel of Mercy

and was like killing old people and had

like gone through several nursing homes

so apparently the nursing home just did

not do a background check so Everly is

now the director she's been fired from

the last four nursing homes because of

um inexplicable deaths maybe maybe we

shouldn't hire her maybe we don't hire

her you know um

so Everly is pregnant but she refuses to

contact Jackson so she's navigating a

new job a pregnancy um but she she will

not contact him wow that really happened

fast but bestie is saying like hey you

need to call him like he deserves to

know this um but Everly is just really

sad um and she can't let go of her

parents murder so um someone rings the

bell and it's Jackson's dad

hey so bestie takes off like a like a

true Rider die she's like this is not

something I should be a part of you guys

have a good one and

leaves so um see I don't know I feel

like my besy energy would be yeah I'm

just going to go into the other room

yeah I'm not leaving and then I would

crack the door 100% I'd be like dumping

out my VOD katonic and putting a glass

to the door I'm like oh I'm sorry oh no

sorry I you talk a little louder I would

chug it and

then I was like I'm sorry that's a waste

full apologies to everyone

um so her his dad is like

listen Jackson is not living without you

he needs you like he really needs you um

and he pleads Jackson's case and says

that um as his father he used Jackson's

love and loyalty against him and she

should not punish him for Dad's actions

like please don't punish Jackson for my

actions

um and he wants dad wants Jackson to

lead with Everly he's like clearly I am

unfit like you you should I mean that's

great Insight yes um and he can smell

that she's pregnant so at one point like

his nostrils flare and his eyes are like

oh [ __ ] and he's like listen he will be

a great partner and a really good father

you should give him a chance I do love

my son I know I told people that they

could kill him but yeah in retrospect

deep down so much love my son is a catch

and you would be lucky to have him right

I didn't feel as lucky which is why I

tried to murder my son but you you my

girl I also tried to murder you but

we'll leave that in the past so she's

like I'll think about it get out of my

house like what's the visitation policy

going to be for my grandchild right I

thought about that you're like you tried

to murder me bro it's never a rest so

we're back to Jackson he's really

struggling he's moved back into like the

pack Barracks um because he's just going

through the motions like he truly feels

awful and he wakes up hearing Everly

call for him in his mind through their

connection mhm and so he races to her

apartment and he finds her naked in the

living room and she explains that his

dad said some things that made sense

nope yep stop Hannah I know I knew this

is going to make you so mad St I knew

this was going to make you so mad I knew

it was going to make you so mad I'm

sorry I'm not mad Hannah you will be oh

my thought was really I'm sorry you're

naked and he shows up and you're like I

talk to your father let me spread my leg

and you're like the [ __ ] leave my dad

out of this I'm sorry what am I going to

get mad about I was really I hadn't even

made it there because she's like listen

I talked to your dad he's right we're

meant to be and he goes to her and

realizes she's pregnant he's overwhelmed

falls to his knees and then starts

fingering her solidifying [ __ ] with

mating nibbles that is the

end well fingering her won't hurt the

baby you're right about that so then the

epilogue oh God Everly is now the pack

alpha Jackson calls her his Queen she's

still the dtor of the nursing home

they're expecting twins any day now um

have they made it

yeah lots of love and

affirmation so happily ever after so

really this whole book is about just

like a failed assassin yeah so what I

thought would make you mad because we've

had conversations about this in the past

where it's like she you know he really

[ __ ] up and then she's just like you

know what I forgive you

he was an active part in killing her

parents and trying to kill her and she's

just like you know what I get it yeah

know I I was just really focused on like

the when he gets to the house she's

naked naked ready and willing like she

has made her mind up and made and she's

just like you

know your dad made a lot of a lot of

good points yeah my Pro con list he had

a lot to the proon true true yeah so um

I can Overlook how would you like to get

in it like yeah not even how how would

you like to

like she just spread them yeah I didn't

read the book but I'm I'm sure that I

she said I'm down to clown and he said

sounds great he said did you know that

Hannah's husband loves

MEP did I tell you or did you see he

posted a picture of Gizmo and Sophie no

but he made Hannah's pets for my dogs he

made them the insane canine posy and

said Gizmo was violent giz and Sophie

was Sophie too dope is that going to be

a holiday card it should be so he

actually said the words to me he was

like I know we don't really do holiday

cards but if I ever did one this would

be it I was like okay I hope my family's

holiday cards make your husband feel

like any holiday card is possible I'm

sure they do he has said that's pretty

good I feel like that's high praise for

now that is actually yeah he doesn't get

hyped often no I have a friend um I've

known for like 10 plus years now and one

of our favorite things each year is her

husband's reaction to our holiday cart

like she'll like send me

videos and so it was super funny because

we did the Winnie the Pooh one when I

was pregnant cuz I was Pooh bear um and

she was like Chelsea I think we broke

bear which is her husband's nickname um

and I was like what the [ __ ] you mean we

broke bear bear like bear is unbreakable

right and she's like he looked at the

card and went H that's pretty cute and

then just kept going she's like I didn't

know what to do she's like we broke

them not a giggle from bear bear giggled

at my holiday card and she's like

normally so like they've kept when I

right before I met my husband and I've

probably told the story before I sent a

holiday I had a friend who was a

photographer she did photos of my cat

and ey and I sent holiday cards of just

my cat and ey with the tagline we're

feline the holiday spirit love

it

um meoi Christmas and happy new year was

like under like I was like I'm going

full in on the cap you committed I I

really did yeah they've kept that

on their fridge for years and she's like

Chelsea was the best thing he saw it and

he just literally

went and put it down and walked out of

the

room so getting a

giggle it's like the same as Matt being

like not bad yeah this pretty good

pretty good yeah like I'm like oh that

is a huge compliment it is thank you

okay what's our rating scale for this

book I have no [ __ ] idea old people

lightning

I don't know amulets amulets sure

steroids syringes there were a lot of

those how many syringes is this out of

oh I don't like that it does feel

accurate even if I don't like it like I

didn't like it um no let's let's let's

just do um let's just do amulets that

feels safer than

syringes right you can do amulets I'll

do amulet I'm I'm staying

fair enough that's that's fair um

so I liked the idea of this book I did

not like this book

so I'm feeling like a how many amulets

are is this out of it's going to be out

of five okay I think two two and a

half I see too I feel like in your

retelling of this book I felt the

potential of it while also being like

like the [ __ ] well and that's why I

started outlining it in the first place

was because when I started it I was like

this is going to be good and then by the

end I was like

oh we missed it well it's outlined right

I was like well yeah no I feel like two

two and a half two two out of five yeah

syringes

is and they can even be

full or would we prefer empty I thought

full was better cuz no one had been

injected but your face made me think

that maybe I'm like what's in it I guess

this antidote that makes you forget your

wolf or whatever yeah yeah okay how many

syringes what what does the syringe have

in it what's in it yeah we need that all

right two out of five amulets we're

still figuring out what's in the

syringes so we can't give a credible

answer regardless two out of five I will

say I have enjoyed her other books more

okay um than this one

but um but y' let us know what what you

think how many amulets how many syringes

what's in the syringe let us know like

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