EP 41: Pause by Kylie Scott

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here's your hosts Chelsea and Anna

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hey everyone welcome to Smart club I'm

Hannah and I'm Chelsea and this is the

show where we drink alcohol

and review trashy not always trashy we

review romance novels of varying degrees

of trash

varying degrees of trash indeed yes

absolutely right the way to put it yes I

am and today Hannah is gonna choose the

book I don't I feel you've told me what

book you're reviewing like five times

yeah the only thing I know about it is

that it's an audiobook

it is audio only called pause okay by

Kylie Scott

it is technically the second in the

Larson Brothers series but they're all

independent like about different

um couples so you don't have to read

them in order or anything like I read a

Kylie Scott book but I like the name

sounds familiar yeah but I can't

remember why okay start telling me about

your book and then I'm going to

interrupt you in a moment when I realize

what book I read note it and I'm just

proactively telling you you're going to

be interrupted

I appreciate you setting expectations

early I

I tried to cut you off dude perfect

and I didn't have anything to say

well damn that was not my best moment so

Vance and I have been watching

um

we've been watching

the challenge

when I was pregnant I watched a lot and

now it's like a show that soothes my

baby when he hears the sounds but I was

cracking up because one of the girls I

think she was from Sweden she had one of

the most like defined laughs I've like

not defined distinct laughs I've ever

heard

it was like like it's very

and so all week we'll just be sitting on

the couch in silence and I'll suddenly

just go like

like an old giant too

and last night eventually to me he's

like

so it seems like we're really committing

to this and I was like he's a lucky man

you know I'm like well we were

committing to this bit okay no wait I

read the first book in the Larson that's

why it sounds familiar I read repeat

yeah

only from audible it wasn't I didn't

listen to it though I read it

you had to have listened I don't think

it it doesn't matter no there

it was no I read it okay

you're saying that in a very placating

way but I'll know now I'm like am I an

idiot well so when I just opened it the

version that pulled up said only from

Audio Only from audible but like you

know on Goodreads where you can see all

of the editions because I definitely

I don't Thrive with audiobooks so I like

that is why I feel very confident that I

read it right

um well now I'm like wait a minute

maybe you just listen to the only I mean

frankly from audible version I read the

first book in the series it was like the

memory one yeah right she lost all her

memory in the first one yeah so the

second one follows Ed from the first

book his younger brother oh yeah I know

that because I just finished it on my

way here

so I know it was dead

um but um no I don't remember who Ed is

that's what I mean it's like the tattoo

artist okay Ed was the name of the guy

in the first one yeah he's our main

character from the first one got it yes

um so in this one it follows his younger

brother Leif

um

what names

and life

oh it was audible only you wouldn't know

uh it's

l-e-i-f-l-o yeah

that's life

according to Andy arnt who was the

narrator for what I just listened to

holy [ __ ]

I don't

what

I oh why is this hitting me so weird

like not like my whole life has been a

lie but like when you've been reading

like something for like

I don't know you read about Vikings and

right and that's their name right yeah

and I was like leaf leaf Erickson that's

life Erickson

what

like have we all been mispronouncing did

the world just tilt on its axis a little

bit like it didn't like fall over yes

but it just like I'm not going to be so

dramatic as to say my whole world has

changed but I am a little like whoa I

didn't I didn't know I am just

pronouncing it the way that the narrator

did I also probably would have

pronounced it leaf

if I had read it

poof that one really got me like I don't

good

why is this impacting me so much I don't

know but I feel like I need to give you

a moment to collect yourself yeah I

wasn't prepared I'm sorry well that was

like

I looked at Vance a couple weeks ago he

walked in the room he's like are you

okay and I was like I've been mixing up

the words levity and brevity

for how long way too long like this is

not a short-term situation here there

was no levity to the situation or breath

yeah and pants was like oh you have and

I'm like

I love that you're you just I said it

with enough confidence for years that

you didn't question this oh no yeah

I apologize to our listeners because

I've probably done it on the book

when I like think back and I'm like damn

okay so this

none of this is relevant tell me about

our boy

life there it is not you nailed it it

did

well so we start with our female main

character her name is Anna

okay and she is like coming back to

Consciousness like she's waking up and

she's really really confused and her

parents are there like standing over her

and she's clearly in a hospital her

parents keep telling her she's a medical

miracle she's like what are you talking

about where's my husband like I don't

this this isn't right

um and her parents tell her she's been

in a coma for seven months she was in a

car accident and

um they didn't think she was gonna live

like um whole thing right

so her parents she keeps asking for her

husband Ryan she's like where's Ryan

where is he what's going on nope and her

parents won't answer her they they keep

getting really cagey and so she's like

there was nobody else in the car with me

like I don't remember the accident but I

remember he stayed at home we were

getting ready for a party I went to run

to the store he wasn't in the car with

me so like he's not he's not dead right

like he wasn't in the accident so what

the hell happened

um and the only thing they'll say is

just he's on his way he's on his way so

she's obviously freaking out

so then that's the prologue then we got

the prologue that's the prologue what is

Juicy prologue I know we're coming in

hot yeah so then it jumps to three

months later in the first chapter so we

get no answers about what the hell

happened

um and she is just showing up at some

guy leif's house

and

um what she's just showing up at his

house no I

why is this book impacting me like is it

every time I say life it's not it's not

every time you say late it's not like

that's where we started and then you're

like yeah so we don't really know what

happens anyway she's on her way to

Life's house and I'm like no I I which I

recognize where we'll get more details

yeah but I'm

my heart was just prepared for the

answer to arrive more immediately no

okay I'm gonna take you on the journey

as I walked it and it's present day yes

at this point yeah so she's just at his

house standing there

um

and she's like maybe this was a bad idea

like oh my god

um and her internal dialogue we find out

that life was also a part of the

accident he was riding his motorcycle

saw the whole thing and wound up going

off the road as well

um and he would visit her in the

hospital and read to her like every

chance that he got

as soon as he was well enough he would

go read to her

um but for some reason he stopped

showing up and nobody seemed to know why

um But like after a couple of months he

stopped coming around so she's about to

clarify in question sure he watched the

accident happen and then got so

distracted he had his own accident

that's what happened it seems like and

like slowly this detail is revealed but

it doesn't really matter it's not like a

big twist or anything but what it seems

like from all the information from the

story is that

she was driving another car like drove

like hit her she swerved Leif saw the

whole thing and with all the breaks and

everything it seemed like it was raining

and he was on his motorcycle and he like

skidded off the road it doesn't sound

like he was hit or anything seemed like

he was trying to avoid

and got like caught up and everything

okay yeah

um so uh he shows up on his motorcycle

as she's like getting ready to leave

because she's like this was a mistake

this was a terrible idea what the hell

am I doing here

so he is shocked to see her he's like

you know my God like you're awake

um

what

my face it's just it's telling me

stories

so Anna doesn't know life no she just

heard that there was a guy who was

coming and reading to her and then

stopped showing up and she's like imma

show up at his house with no

introduction or like correct like no

relationship to introduce myself yeah

yeah okay just making sure she's just

going for it

um and he like kind of gets

flustered understandably because this

woman that

was in a coma that he saw in this

terrible accident is like just standing

on his front porch

um and he like kind of gets his far off

look and he says he still has nightmares

about not being able to get her out of

the car and like not being able to get

to her

um and she's like

I'm so sorry I'm just gonna go I didn't

mean to like bring anything up I just

wanted to say thank you like that's it

I'm so sorry

um but he insists that she stay invites

her in his condo is completely empty

except for a king-sized mattress on the

floor in the living room he has no

furniture whatsoever please tell me he

just moved

um not recently enough it was like a few

months from what he said

do you remember old meme where it would

be like you can tell it's like a single

guy's house because he'll just take the

one light bulb from room to room

which I always felt like a joke but also

is not a joke yeah at all no it wasn't

for life

um so

um

she notices that he is like super

attractive and everything and then she's

like come on in I get your [ __ ] together

you're still technically a married woman

and we don't know what that means but

they order food they chat it's really

sweet

um she's like thanking him for reading

to her and everything and

um he says that you know he just wanted

to make sure that she was okay and you

know he didn't really have anything to

do because he couldn't work because he's

a tattoo artist and he had a lot of

damage to his left arm and so he

couldn't work anyway he was like what

was that what else was I gonna do

besides come read to a pretty girl it's

no problem

um so it's all very sweet but then

there's knock at the door and they think

it's the food they ordered but it's her

husband what

um demanding that she get in his car and

leave with him

and she is big mad she is big mad

because apparently he tracked her phone

but she's like well it used to be super

convenient when we were married to know

like yeah how far away are you like are

you still at the store those kinds of

their location right but she's like

we're not together anymore so this is a

massive invasion of privacy and she

tells him off and she's like

screaming at him in front of Leif and Ed

leif's brother who lives next door comes

out and is watching the whole thing and

her Ryan is like get in the car like I

told him to stay away from you blah blah

blah blah blah and she's like you don't

get to do this like you don't get to

have an opinion about who I spend time

with you literally cheated on me with my

best friend while I was in a coma oh

and everybody's like oh

oh no

yeah well that's not not good ideal it's

not a good look for Ryan

did I tell you

I think I've I've told the story before

about the time that Vance and I were on

a cruise and they were doing like the

late night like Newlywed Game

and

God

um so

they did like the couple who'd been

married the longest

the couple who'd been married most

recently and then like the third spot

you had to like earn your way into and

it was a whole funny competition and

whatever

um but one of the questions was like

like I forget exactly how it was worded

but it was something to the effect of

which one of your spouse's friends like

something like that that's a terrible

question right and can only lead to

problems well and so like the couple had

been married the longest they've been

married for like

50 years right they were so sweet and

his he's like it would be her friend

Edith right I'm making up and in here

Janice yes and he's like we've really

talked about it like

um they've been best friends forever she

would want me to be happy and we've

always like had this like it was just

this very sweet like should something

ever happen to my wife

she knows her friend would take very

good care of me and just this like one

of those conversations that comes with

age and maturity of marriage right the

couple had been married the shortest

amount of time had been married like 48

hours because they got married and then

the cruise was their honeymoon

and whatever friend name she said

or like she thought he was going to

choose was not the name he chose where

she was like oh yeah it'd be like Katie

and his on his board he'd written like

Susie or whatever and she just turns

around it's like are you kidding me like

on stage in front of like hundreds of

people oh lips flicks or flips

books with her middle finger oh flips

flips I was like I think you can do I

think that's Entertainment flick or flip

yeah for a middle finger for people who

are not watching and only listening that

would be really confusing

she did something with her middle finger

noted

um like on stage this single finger

salute the single finger salute

in front of hundreds of people she's

like I can't believe you choose her and

like Vance and I were sitting there and

we were like ooh

so this is not the first time this girl

has been like yeah been brought up and

caught some tension yep in their

relationship and that is the sort of

relationship that I'm imagining

um she had with Ryan whatever her name

is Emma Anna Anna well see but it it

doesn't seem that way though because

this

best friend of hers was truly her best

friend since College they had lived

together they'd known each other for

years she worked for her as an event

planner at her business

and Anna worked for her okay yeah and so

like

so is it giving more of

Ryan and the bestie were like bonding in

their grief and then it just kind of

happened so that's his whole excuse

right is like you have no idea how hard

it was for me and she's like yeah

I'm sure that me being in a coma and

almost dying was a real challenge for

you like he has no empathy or he's just

all about like making excuses for

himself he's

he's very focused on his experience of

it very much so so here's um seven

months is not long enough no it's not

like if if it's a Terry shivo situation

that is a whole other conversation right

but I'm like

seven months but I also think too like

for for me and this might be weird but

for me if that something like that

happened I'd be like that's like I get

it like go to a sex worker or whatever

get on Bumble and hook up yeah you're

like my best friend yeah like do what

you need to do to get your needs met

right but like don't destroy my

relationships

because I might be coming back right

wait to do the real connections and

until I don't wake up for my coma right

way to actually pull the plug yeah like

if you just needed to get your dick wet

right while I'm in a coma do what you

need to do get that I'm not here no

judgment All God's Children

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emotional connections right

Vance and I've had so many conversations

where he's like if something ever

happened to you he's like Ford and I

would go off the grid and no one would

ever hear from us again

oh

I don't like that oh no Vance would not

do well if something ever happened to me

well I also right real weird about

conversations about death oh really

bless him it's like a very endearing

thing but I didn't know that he like

didn't do well with conversations about

death and so it was like when we were

dating we were driving from um like

between Nashville and Atlanta

and I don't even know how the topic came

up but I was like yeah I mean like I

don't know I never really like

conceptualize myself making it past my

40s I just kind of figured I'd go out on

a free jellyfish accident or something

right yeah I think that's normal though

to like not be able to picture yourself

older well but apparently then I fell

asleep and

him with that I did I was talking about

a freak jellyfish accident we are not

talking about cold hard facts here right

and like I wake up an hour later

and he is in a [ __ ] mood and I'm like

you okay over there and he's like you

talked about dying and then just went to

sleep

and he's like I've literally just been

sitting here ruminating on you

I was like oh my God I was like I'm so

sorry I did not know

I can be so more mindful but like bless

him he does not do well with

conversations about death it's fair yes

yeah

um no as horrible as it sounds I think I

I would not be okay if I lost fans right

I think ultimately I would fare better

in the long run then that makes sense

yeah than if something happened to me I

don't know if you and Matt feel the same

way

I I thought about it and I feel like I

would like

I would probably

be I would go gray Gardens like feral

for maybe a year

and then I would come back around but

like I don't have a kid to take care of

so like I could go gray Gardens and it

would be fine but like I would probably

go feral for like a year and then I

would be okay but I would like not be

okay well I mean you know what I mean

you know I do know what you mean and

like throwing a kid in the works

definitely like yeah changes that

trajectory

um no when I was pregnant I had a

horrible like I already like have

anxiety right and I wouldn't even like

postpartum anxiety it's just my normal

level of anxiety but like when I was

pregnant I was having like the most

wildly like intrusive thought oh no oh I

think like we were driving back from a

wedding and there was like a car next to

us that had like a little U-Haul trailer

and like in my head when I was pregnant

everything was like

Final Destination right where this is it

yeah I was like okay I was like so

what's gonna happen is that that trailer

is gonna like become unattached from the

card statue it's gonna swing over into

our lane we're gonna end up in that

ditch over there Vance isn't gonna

survive I have a baby what are we gonna

do I don't want to pay our mortgage what

if it's just us this house is way too

big for just me and a baby I don't know

we'll move back to Nashville but if we

move back to Nashville how am I going to

get weed I don't have a dealer

would cope and like

like I was am I gonna see

I can't sleep over at me he's like what

you thinking about and I was like you

really want to know he's like yeah I I

think I do hyper ventilating in the

passengers here and then I like told him

I was like this is where my head's at

and he's like

listens to my whole story

best part to me and God I love my

husband he's just like

you would call this person

they'd be able to get you weed and

Nashville and I was like oh

okay we're good thank you problem solved

I like that he's like

didn't try to like

there there was no like cognitive

challenging there was no right let's

de-catastrophize this he's like let's

just solve the problem you know people

with weed in Nashville let me remind you

of their names because in my head I was

like that's the only way I'd be able to

cope

I'll never be okay again yeah yeah

um pregnancy was weird man yeah

Vance also looked at me on that trip and

he's like

I really am sorry

that he's not he's like I'm not sorry

you're pregnant he's like but you are

just such an anxious person and he's and

not that like substances are the ideal

coping skill right right but there is

something nice when you like had a long

day when you're feeling a little like

edgy wound and edgy and you're like I

just want to have like a glass of wine

and relax and you're like I can't do

that Advance is like I'm really sorry

that

you have lost coping skills in pregnancy

are coping resources have changed and

adjusted yeah I'm like you know it's

probably a really good therapeutic

exercise to use coping skills hormones

are raging that's the perfect time to do

it yeah well you know we can do some

decatastrophizing versus drinking we can

and that's probably a helpful skill to

practice growth okay so there Anna got

an audience where she's telling Ryan

he's not allowed to get pissed about

life because

he [ __ ] her best friend well she was

in a coma yeah well I mean she wasn't

even referring to really life at all she

was just saying like you have no right

to be here you have no right to be

concerned about where I'm at or who I'm

with you can [ __ ] off so they're

separated at this point but neither has

filed for divorce okay so she is super

embarrassed and she leaves but not with

her husband he gets in the car and

drives away and then she leaves

um

so then a couple of weeks later

so this is this book is over like a

pretty long period of time it's like a

year and a half that it's going so it

jumps time pretty regularly so a couple

weeks later she's coming home from

Physical Therapy which is really

basically like all she does she goes to

physical therapy all the time because

obviously she was really really injured

um and there's a surprise party for her

birthday at her house and she is not

pleased but her mom like that's the kind

of person her mom is and very into

appearances and stuff like that yeah and

so she was like mom's happy it's fine

that I show out for my first birthday

post coma right okay it's fine that I

look disgusting I don't give a [ __ ] it's

fine so all like a bunch of old friends

are there that know about the whole

thing with her and Ryan because they all

work together and so she was like great

I love this so much so she just like

hides with her other best friend kind of

in the corner

but then her husband shows up uninvited

with flowers Ryan just doesn't seem to

be getting any sort of hint here that

she's not into it so he brings her

flowers and he's like we really need to

talk and tells her that her best friend

that he slept with is pregnant

and she's like

we were supposed to try for a baby this

year and he's like we still can the [ __ ]

right that's literally what I was like

what the [ __ ] like no Ryan no feel the

room right

like not the vibe babe like we're not

there we're not even in that zip code so

is he still with the best friend so

that's her question right yeah Anna's

like so how far along is she

and he's like what and she's like four

months right because you said it was one

time in a moment of weakness right so

she would be four months along

correct

no incorrect they'd been sleeping

together for quite some time and the

check is only like eight weeks pregnant

or something like that

well but even though Anna's back from

the coma she's not sleeping with him and

he needs to get his needs met obviously

Anna we we're being unrealistic

obviously this is really

a hero tale of Ryan right and everything

that he went through so much pain

so

she is livid and just puts all the

flowers down the garbage disposal in her

mother's kitchen one at a time in front

of the whole party she's like I don't

even care anymore

[ __ ] everybody

also

obviously they need to have a

conversation about that right right but

like

at her birthday party her birthday party

at her mother's house I got you the gift

of not your child right like right so he

clearly again cannot read the room how

old are they by the way do we know she's

26 and he's like 28 or 29 I think okay

um

so

um she again just shows up at leif's

tattoo shop

she just walks in

um and meets his brother

at more yep good good job thank you um

more officially yeah

um and some other people she's super

nervous

um but she's like you know he said we

could be friends and I I think I could

use a friend like you know everything is

a [ __ ] show right now

um and there's one really cute moment

where life is clearly kind of like

flirting with her to make her

uncomfortable and she's like blushing

and

um she's like so are you do you just

enjoy embarrassing me on purpose and

then he started blushing he's like

that's not what I was doing and the guy

he was tattooing was like just apologize

man back up bro like

he's like get it together man just say

you're sorry

so cute little cute little moments like

that happen like throughout the book but

so they go out to eat and then get day

Drunk Together

and then go you watch day drinking with

Seth Meyers no it's a great series okay

10 out of 10 would recommend what is it

on

probably YouTube is where I've just

I don't know if it's part of his late

night show or if it's just like a

separate segment I think it's normally

part of his show but I've just watched

them individually on YouTube

um like he has one with lizzo he has one

with Rihanna oh I did see the one with

lizzo

I don't know if I'm impressed or

terrified by how much Seth Meyers can

drink yeah I had that thought when he

was drinking with lizzo yes and that's

like all of them yeah oh I'm like holy

[ __ ] right how often are we doing

this buddy it's not good for you no I'm

like

I

I don't drink nearly as much as I used

to but in a like in a former season I

was like I have a pretty good tolerance

right

watching him I was like my tolerance was

nothing it will always be nothing I was

like I am both impressed and terrified

for this level of alcohol that you are

consuming

yeah yeah yeah well that's this they

drink like a a friggin

half gallon of of

Bloody Mary a piece and then just go bar

hopping all day and she had brought a

bottle of Scotch for him to the tattoo

shop so then they're finishing off this

bottle of Scotch together so they are

three hammered yeah

so they go back to his condo later and

he bought a couch

um because when he she went there the

first time she she's still recovering

and so she can't stand for long periods

of time so he had to like set her up on

the on the counter oh on the counter

because she couldn't she can't really

get down like that like here's the whole

thing so um he was like I bought a couch

for you kind of hoping that you'd come

back like you know it was very sweet and

also like bro

maybe you should buy a couch for

yourself yeah

um so

they talk about like relationships and

what they miss about them and he reveals

that he doesn't do relationships because

his last girlfriend

um serious girlfriend tried to kill his

sister-in-law twice and he that's from

the first book it was from repeat

um and so she he feels really guilty

that he didn't like see it coming that

he didn't know and so now he just

doesn't trust anybody ever I mean

understandable if you found out the

person you're dating

attempted murder multiple times on

somebody that you care about like to try

to get to your brother because that was

the whole thing yeah like

I'd probably be a little

cautious yes good word cautious yeah

apprehensive even

um so

um they go back and forth about like I

miss holding hands I miss

um you know having someone to go over my

day with like they go back and forth and

then she's like in her drunk state of

mind it's like

um we can solve each other's problem

this is brilliant this is the best idea

I've ever had we could just be like sex

friends this would be cool

so she moves in to kiss him

and he does not reciprocate and she

starts to cry and this is the only quote

I have for the whole book because it was

like my favorite she just is sobbing and

goes my mouth made bad choices

which is such a drunk girl thing to say

my mouth made bad choices

you're not wrong right that feels like

something that in the moment you're like

this is the only way I can describe this

situation exactly so no go ahead because

in my head was like oh so this book is

about to just turn into like a Friends

with Benefits book that started with a

girl in a coma but then he was like no

your mouth did make bad choices yeah

awkward

but he Comforts her and he's very sweet

and she's like this is the most

embarrassing thing ever and he's like no

we're just getting all of our formative

friend moments out of the play early we

went through the accident together I've

already gotten in a fight with your ex

and now this you've already come on to

me we can just go ahead and move past it

and if you want to try it again in a

couple months we'll see where we're at

and she's like he didn't mean that he's

really just trying to make me feel

better this is terrible

so

I do agree with her sentiment there

right because if like I move in to kiss

a guy that I'm friends with

there well one there'd be a lot of

problems because I've been married for a

long time but like in another season

separate problem right but like if you

make a move and you move in to kiss

someone and they thwart that kiss and

like but you know like maybe try to get

in a few months you're like no I will

not be trying again ever no ever ever

so again a couple of weeks go by

um Anna's decided to go apartment

hunting she's been living with her

parents but she has now filed for

divorce after she found out about the

pregnancy so she's got some money coming

in from that settlement so she knows she

can afford it so her mom it turns out is

like besties with life ever since he's

been coming to the hospital to read to

her so they talk all the time apparently

and so her mom called life to come over

and go apartment

hunting with her oh damn because she

knew that Anna wouldn't want her mom to

go with her so her mom was like somebody

needs to go so life can go

um my mom really likes to overstep and

in a big way yeah damn

um Mom just gets in there so

um

he takes her they start driving around a

little bit and then he's like you know

what you should move in with me and

she's like I'm sorry what what and he's

like yeah you know that way like

like you'll have somebody there if

something happens because physically her

Mobility still isn't great and she's got

all these doctor's appointments and

stuff

and he's like if something happens

somebody that you know will be there

like I I can help you blah blah blah and

she's like I really don't want your

charity and he's like listen it's not

actually charity I lost a lot of income

from the accident because I couldn't

work and you'd actually be helping me a

lot if you moved in and helped with the

rent and she was like okay I guess and

agrees to move in with him

okay yep yeah we're just

suspending belief here it's fine right

so it obviously you would do that you

would move in with

a person that the last time you saw them

was like no thank you

to your attempts to become sex friends

and then what what are we expecting to

happen from that really I went apartment

hunting with

two friends these like separate states

one was in Florida one was in Texas

um who were single dudes who like just

like needed someone to go with them

there it gets weird going apartment

hunting with someone that like because

like people assumed we were together

people were assuming like one guy

um they're like oh so you're looking for

the two of you and he's like no just for

me but maybe if I'm lucky she'll I'm

like oh no this is it

that's not what I thought was happening

here was he serious or just trying to

mess with the person or you

no I think he liked me

awkward no I knew he liked me and I was

not in in the emotional place for that

which I kept telling him but then kept

hanging out with him because

companionship feels nice you know yeah

and then he kept being like so

is this moving that way and I was like

uh I thought I was clear no that's not

I'm what I'm looking for still hasn't

changed right well I get drunk and make

out with you sure obviously

but past that no no we're we're good

also we're noting that specific instance

when we met I

had just turned 20.

he thought I was 25 I thought he was 25

but I was 20 and he was like 30. and I

was in grad school yeah it was just a

clumsy season of life you know yeah I do

yeah

I do

you're like I'm not gonna air those

details but I do I mean who hasn't had

one of those clumsy seasons of life

right you know it's like a rite of

passage it really is

and Anna's definitely in hers right now

which like God bless her because like

she was not expecting to be in that

season of life no and that's kind of

like her whole thing is she's having to

rewrite her whole identity because she's

realizing she got with Ryan when she was

a freshman in college and is the only

guy she'd ever slept with like this was

her person and her whole life was built

around him and the best friend that she

worked for she lost everything and so

she's like well [ __ ]

so

um she moves in a couple weeks later

and then that night

she hears him he has a nightmare about

the accident and so she goes out to see

what's going on like why is he awake

because he's like doing push-ups in the

living room she's like what the hell are

you doing and he's like well I had a I

had a nightmare about the accident like

it's just a one bedroom no it's two

bedroom

okay yeah it's two bedrooms this is

mattress in the living room I was like

is she sleeping in the bedroom and he's

sleeping on his king size mattress in

the living room no no okay yeah that's

an important distinction

um so then she's like you know what we

should do we should make brownies so

they cook together it's very cute

um and then the next day

um she goes to take the brownies to the

tattoo shop and the the person that Leif

was dating before was the receptionist

at the tattoo shop and they have yet to

find one that's gonna work out like they

keep going through people and they're

terrible I guess

she agrees to work there got it a few

hours a week

so now she's the receptionist

um and then now they are doing this

thing because neither of them sleep well

where they watch Twilight in the middle

of the night because those are the books

he read to her when she was in a coma

he's like I didn't pick them on purpose

like my sister-in-law told me you might

like them and so that's what I did and

he's like all embarrassed about it it's

very cute

um this sounds very endearing it's very

sweet so they bake together and then

they watch Twilight together in the

middle of the night when he can't sleep

um so she continues to objectify him and

have lots of thoughts about how hot he

is and she's like stop it he is your

friend he doesn't want more than that he

is your friend this entire book from her

perspective yes okay

so then

um her divorce gets finalized a while

later and she decides to get dressed up

and do her makeup and get drunk and

celebrate at home because why not so she

does her makeup does her makeup she does

her hair she's looking hot she's in this

gorgeous dress just drinking champagne

in the living room I respect it

um so Leif gets home they drink together

there's some cute moments of bonding

together again getting drunk and silly

together and then they pass out together

in her bed

um fully clothed both of them and um he

sleeps through the night which is a big

deal because he has been unable to sleep

through the night

at all since the accident but definitely

not with anybody else in the bed since

the whole thing with his ex okay so it's

a big deal and then she comes out of the

bedroom later to see him holding a woman

in the living room like giving a woman a

hug and she's like um

man because she was like kind of like

wow like he really is a great friend and

even though he doesn't feel that way

about me like this is still really

awesome I really care about him and then

she comes out to see that and is kind of

like oh yikes

so the chick is really beautiful and

Leif introduces her as an old friend and

then introduces Anna as his roommate and

she's like right lest we forget I am his

roommate I'm gonna go she's like I'm

just gonna let you guys you know catch

up or whatever bye so she spends the

whole day

out

um and some other stuff happens while

she's out that doesn't really matter

um but uh she is nervous that Leif has

this girl in the apartment and so she

doesn't really want to go back so she

waits until like midnight and goes back

um and he's waiting up for her he's like

I couldn't sleep because I didn't know

where you were and I didn't know what

you were doing

um did he text her apparently not her

apparently not sure

um or it's not mentioned maybe he did

so

um he's like I thought we were past this

like I thought we were past you running

away when something got uncomfortable

because that's what she was doing right

so like

Ryan showed up at his apartment she

didn't text him or respond to him for

two weeks and like things like that and

so he explains that he told his friend

that they couldn't start anything up

again because they did used to hook up

she's moving back to town but he said I

told her nothing can happen because

something's happening between you and me

um and so this is like him like really

like acknowledging that there is

something happening there yeah and she's

like what she's like wait a minute but

are you sure

um and he's like it's time for you to

make that move again right like it's

been a few months like it's time for you

to make that move again and so then they

bang and it's amazing

um they had their solidifying [ __ ] they

well yeah I guess you could say they did

have a solidifying [ __ ] because she's

like oh my God is this what sex is

supposed to be like oh baby girl yeah

um and he is obviously very sweet and

very attentive with her

and they bang through the whole night

um and then the next day she's like so

what is happening right now and he's

like why are we trying to put a label on

it like why can't we just be having fun

and she's like no no I need a label like

what's happening right now

and he's like I guess we're roommates

with benefits like you know like we're

friends

um and she's like that's cool she just

she literally just wanted to answer like

she wasn't fishing for like let's be

together because she's not there either

like she doesn't want that yet so she's

like okay so I don't know I can set my

expectations accordingly yeah I know the

labels were cool so then at work he's

doing a sternum tattoo on a woman and

Anna gets kind of freaked out that he's

like touching another woman's boobs

um even though I have a sternum tattoo

and I'm here to tell you that's like the

least sexy experience one can have

genuinely I don't have my sternum I have

my ribs and I I mean obviously not

identical spots but same kind of you're

like you know like yeah yeah it's around

your chest and like nothing sexy about

it

although I will say so my tattoo shop

that I always go to

um is owned by a close friend and he's

my best friend's brother-in-law so like

family events and stuff we've known each

other for years and years and years and

um one of his apprentices did my sternum

tattoo and she was showing it to him and

for some reason they decided to share

this story with me and I've never been

able to forget it she was showing him

the work right and my nipples were taped

because that's what you do yeah um but I

I mean I was tits out you know that's

how you have to be

and so it was just a picture of my chest

right showing the the tattoo and he was

like he was telling me I had a bonfire

like two weeks later like we're all

standing around and he's like yeah so

Anna was showing me like all the work

and everything and I was like damn those

lines are really clean like that's

looking really good and damn whose tits

are those

and she he goes and then Anna told me it

was you and I was like no oh God no

that's like my little sister what have I

done

hahaha

I was like why would you tell me that

why would you tell me that come on Ed

[ __ ] listen

it's always nice to be told you have

nice tits I guess well not always nice

actually

but like yeah there is a context in

which it's not cool so I had a co-worker

that she had this pair of jeans

they were like a gray wash Jean

they hugged her ass so beautifully and

every single time she wore them I was

like I just need you to know your ass

looks incredible In Those Jeans and

she's like thank you so much and then we

but we we had a really big conversation

about the fact that like there are some

people that when they compliment like

when a woman tells you that like your

butt looks nice in jeans we love that

yeah it like feels you're like oh this

is a real compliment this isn't like a

sleazy compliment right and so well

obviously not not quite the same

situation without it but I do feel like

there's a difference between him being

like

hey Hannah you got nice tits versus like

yeah I saw this tattoo and I was like

great boobs and then I found out who

they were and I was like oh God no like

you're like right right the compliment

feels more genuine

that's such a good point I didn't think

of it that way

you're like oh he had no context to like

know there was no like he was hitting

there was nothing he just like

objectively he's like great boobs and

then he like gave Matt a handshake

[Laughter]

and all of this obviously it happened in

front of my husband and his new

girlfriend all at the same time I was

like

okay just to be clear the tattoo artist

new girlfriend yeah cause he's not my

husband about my husband and his new

girlfriend and I was like oh we're just

being really I didn't I didn't know if

you guys were ethically non-monogamous

which is totally fine but in my head

before I build out this whole narrative

about Anna being in an ethically

non-monogamous marriage not monogamous

no we are ethically monogamous for sure

you're like yeah and just in front of my

husband and his new girlfriend and I was

like I'm pretty sure she means the

tattoo artist girlfriend yeah yeah no no

we're in clay important distinction yes

thank you for clarifying for our

listeners

yeah yeah that is um

shook his hand he did

not quite the same but and I think I've

told you the story before we were at um

a pool party last summer when I was like

five months pregnant like I wasn't like

huge but I definitely looked pregnant

yeah and especially I'm like I'm wearing

a swimsuit like it there's nothing I'm

like rubbing my stomach drinking my

non-alcoholic beer you know what I mean

and this guy was hitting on me

and like Vance was also at this party

and it was a dude who just kind of

seemed like he's like oh here's a new

girl that I haven't met in this group

before I'ma shoot my shot and I'm like

you don't know me I don't know you but I

I keep talking about the fact that I'm

pregnant

you just seem lonely at this point right

when we got in the car to leave I looked

at pants and I was like I got hit on and

he's like hell yeah you did you gave me

a high five

that's the energy I love that yes so we

were having a big conversation about

this recently

um with Vance's best friend and his wife

and man Kiana is the girl you want in

your corner she will cut a [ __ ] for you

it is like the absolute best right

um but we were cracking up because

her both Kiana and Jordan very

attractive people they go to the gym

they both get hit on like but they're

always at the gym together right and so

yeah Kiana's like yeah I saw that girl I

I will [ __ ] her up if she talks to my

husband again and Vance and I are just

out here like I got hit on and we're

like hell yeah I'm like high-fiving each

other I'm so proud of you oh and Kiana's

like I will cut another hoe If she talks

to my husband and I'm like

yeah I was like you should want to talk

to my husband my husband's great I'm

right I'm like you can't have him but

it's always

you know that you're wanted

yes yeah but Vance also never realized

realizes that women are hitting on him I

never realize when men are hitting on me

really never yeah you know

that's fair like I can't remember if I

have shared this before but like I

distinctly remember we were at work and

this was before Matt and I had started

dating or really even talking yet

and for people who are newer to the

podcast Hannah and her husband Matt do

work together we met at work so that is

important when it comes to if they were

together or not at work yes for the

context and so

um I was sitting there where a bunch of

us together and he touched my back and I

distinctly remember getting into the car

with one of my other co-workers and I

was like that Mac guy just touched my

back that was weird right and she's like

Hannah he's into you and I was like what

like that can't be true like that

doesn't make any sense and she's like

Hannah

babe come on

just just sit with this for a second

really process it through yeah

and then like two weeks later he asked

me out and I was like oh

cool

you're like oh I see yeah apparently

everybody knew

I had no idea oh no that's like when

Vance got his contact order recently

the he goes for his eye appointment he

comes home and like in the little

envelope or they put like his receipt

his prescription all like all of that

stuff like the samples there's like a a

handwritten phone number

I don't I forget the name but I was like

who's Maria and he's like oh yeah it's

the girl who works at like Target

Optical and she was so helpful and I was

like

oh why did she give you her phone number

he was like yeah well just in case there

was anything that went wrong with the

order what have you I was like baby the

Target Optical numbers on the front of

the package and on the receipt she's not

I was like I was like this is not the

Target phone number and he's like it's

not he was dumbfounded had no idea he

was being hit on Vance and I may be very

similar people because I'm like no that

can't be right like

I think

for me there's been a shift within

marriage and you recognize that like

I take my marriage very seriously yeah

um and not everyone

you know engages with marriage in the

same capacity that my husband and I do

right

um

but I'm just like I think

I

not expected to get hit on more but I

was better at picking up the cues and

signs when I was single because now I'm

like well I'm a married woman why would

anyone be hitting on me

um even though like it is still people

are trash

or they're looking for ethically

non-monogram non-monogamous everywhere

right or they're like you know maybe

their marriage is in a fragile spot I'm

just like allow me to help yeah maybe

her partner is in a coma and has been

for seven months you get it exactly so I

think now if someone were hitting on me

I probably much like my husband would

not be as quick to like

no that actually happened I accidentally

gave my phone number to the UPS guy

how do you accidentally give your phone

number to someone this was pre-pandemic

I was in the office

um for work and I was the only therapist

who was in the office at that hour

and whatever the UPS guy's route was he

kept coming and dropping packages off

when I was like the only clinician there

I was in session and he needed

signatures so he knocked on my door in

interrupted session

and he's like I'm so sorry but like I

need to say I was like yeah I don't know

it's fine and so I just like sign it and

move on

um and he was like thank you so much

then the next day it happened again and

when I was like yeah yeah no it's time

but I'm like trying to like whip through

it because I'm like I need to like I'm

in session I need to get back and

he's like thanks so much

um I really appreciate he's like I know

I'm like interrupting your work and he

like gives me a side hug once again I'm

like so focused on getting back in

session right I'm not and he's like hey

he's like would it be easier if you just

gave me your numbers and that way I can

text you and so that way you have a

heads up when I'm gonna be coming that

way if you're yeah sounds great here's

my number man and I just like move on

and then I like sit back down in session

and I like take a beat and then I look

at my client and I'm like

did I just get the UPS guy my phone

number and they're like you did Chelsea

so I get home and I was like I look at

Vance I'm like

so I gave the UPS guy my phone number I

didn't realize what I was doing and he's

like what are you talking about like I'm

so sorry and I told her I told him the

whole situation he's like honestly I

respect that man's game real recognize

real you know

good for him yes yeah we have a hot UPS

guy in the area where I live

um and work and so the girls at work

will send out a text a group text and be

like hot UPS guy he's here he's here get

to get to a window get to a what are any

of them trying to actually engage with

him or no they're all married except for

one and he his root is also her house so

the day she found out about that it was

like an absolute meltdown in the group

chat it was a meltdown in the group chat

like oh my God can you get a picture and

she's like no that is just a different

level I just got divorced I can't be the

sad divorced lady with three cats taking

pictures of the hot UPS guy

that is great Insight because she's not

wrong no you don't want to be that's not

the energy you want to give that's not

the label that we're looking for well

that's like before I got Craig

um neutered

laughs

Craig I didn't crack the cat Craig the

cat yes Craig is my cat I had never had

a male pet before right so I did not

realize that he was just trying to [ __ ]

so hard like crying at like 3 A.M at

full volume looking for some strange yep

did not jawn on me

I was going through a breakup that week

and this is relevant because I opened

the front door the day after I've had my

breakup and there's three cats I've

never seen just sitting on my front step

and I was like

am I really projecting this energy this

much that even the neighborhood cats

know I'm single and I'm just gonna be

the crazy cat lady I'm just collecting

them now yeah and then I realized that

my cat was just trying to get his dick

wet and yeah

not everything was about you in that

moment no but it felt that way which is

understandable it was it was that entire

moment was about Craig

Craig does have main character energy

for sure he really does it's also super

sweet because Ford has started to like

recognize Craig

and it was the first time I've ever seen

Aben but I was sitting on the couch with

Ford in my lap and Craig hops up on the

armrest of the couch and Ford looks over

and sees him and just starts giggling

it was the absolute sweetest thing oh my

God that sounds adorable yeah like last

week our dog Brandon licked Ford's face

and I was like it's happening

all of my sons

my dreams are coming true so I was like

this is the moment I've been waiting for

okay so all this to say Anna was feeling

a little jealous because Leif was doing

a sternum tattoo on a hot chick on a hot

chick yeah so he comes out when they're

taking a break and like starts basically

making out with her in the reception

area and she's like

um do roommates with benefits do this

like I'm a little confused that is a

valid question and she's like so I guess

we're not keeping it low-key at work and

he's like did you want to and she's like

I guess not we really should talk later

because I don't know what's happening

so I understand her confusion though

yeah when he's like yeah we're roommates

with benefits but that's not

a roommates with Benefits Behavior right

but she also sees the girl come out

clearly in a lot of pain and she's like

oh that's not sexy got it so she feels

better about that whole situation

um so but then they because they hadn't

talked about being exclusive or anything

right we're just roommates with benefits

so they talk about that later they agree

they're exclusive blah blah blah

so then

um

he wakes up with a nightmare that night

um and he is like in a full panic

because he's like

I was pinned by my bike in my dream and

I couldn't get to you and like the the

car was on fire and I couldn't get to

you and he's like really freaking out so

she's like maybe you should go to

therapy and he's like I don't need

therapy and she's like but it seems like

maybe you do I go to therapy and it's

great and he's like I'm not into it

she's like okay maybe we should go to

couples counseling because we have

issues and he's like is this some

[ __ ] thing where you try to get me

to go to couples counseling and then it

turns out to be all about my nightmares

and she's like yes but also wouldn't it

be so helpful if we did the couples

counseling thing early and could have

like the healthiest relationship ever

and he's like

I'll think about it and she's like

you're right this isn't a real

relationship just kidding sorry sorry

um

yeah so because I was literally

addressing about that that difference of

like exclusive roommates with Benefits

versus like a committed relationship

that line between exclusive and

committed is

weird it is weird because for all

intents and purposes

it's kind of the same thing you're just

like the behavior is the same the

behavior is the same you're just

pretending that you're allowing yourself

more emotional distance right that but

I'm like no here's the thing

it's still going to hurt if it ends

right like there's

if if it is from a self-preservation

standpoint that you are saying you are

exclusive but not committed

it doesn't change that it's gonna hurt

and that's definitely what it is for her

and she's like pretty clear about that

that like she never wants to get married

again like she's not into that stuff she

just

you know she didn't have sex for like a

year she was in a coma and then coming

like doing a bunch of rehab for it and

you know she likes him she trusts him

and he's hot so you know that's like her

attitude towards the whole thing um

so

um then they bang again this is much

more of like a true solidifying [ __ ]

situation like it's it was a little bit

before but now it's like for real for

real because he's so vulnerable in that

moment

so then a little while later her ex

shows up again

so oh I forgot at one point the um

the former best friend also shows up at

the tattoo shop and it looks awful and

is clearly struggling and she's like you

can't work at another place you never

resigned from the hotel and she's like

um I I quit I I was in a coma for seven

months and you replaced me

wasn't aware that I needed to put in a

notice for you and she's like but you

could come back like you could come back

to work and she's like no no I couldn't

you're a dumb skank I never want to see

you again she doesn't actually say that

but like that's the energy yeah

um

and so like these people just keep

showing up so then after all this stuff

the X shows up again and he's like I

made a mistake like Celia was a mistake

I'm so sorry like I never should have

divorced you like or agreed to the

divorce I never should have done it

um I'm so miserable without you and

she's like once again everything is

about you like I'm fine go away and life

shows up and she's like I've got it like

leave it I've got it and she's like

telling her ex off and life of course

does not leave it and they get into a

fist fight

and she is mad she is mad because as

they're fist fighting her ex like pushes

her down and like it's like a whole

thing so he's like I'm sorry I should

have listened to you you told me you had

it and he's like banged up but he's like

let me check you like because you you

fell and so then of course he uses that

to check her ass and then they bang

again

um

he's like I am in fact a renowned

derriere doctor please allow me like

he's such a cornball it feels like we're

losing a little bit of the plot like

you're like oh we're just we're just

looking for the sex here well that's

what that's what it is at this point

there's like a splash of plot and then

they bang a splash of plot and then they

die so like that is the energy it's

giving yeah

um but there's also he's such a cornball

like it's really adorable like he

refuses to refer to her ex by his name

he just calls him a [ __ ] Splash over and

over again which I found cunning split

[ __ ] splash which I found very amusing

um

so then he very clearly after they have

sex after the fight he's like about to

say he's like looking deeply into her

eyes and he's like Anna I I want to tell

you and she's like dinner what should we

have for dinner and he's like

hmm dinner and she's like you're right

your face is really banged up let me get

you some ice and it's just really really

awkward because he very clearly was

about to declare some feelings and she

was not into it

so he's like okay I'm just gonna I just

need some I just need some time by

myself today's been a big day I was

gonna go to bed and so they don't talk

again all night and all the next day

really and she's kind of starting to

freak out and she's like I need to go

talk to him like I really need to go

talk to him

so as she's getting ready to leave the

house

a guy shows up at the door this like old

guy who's very clearly high and he's

like do you know me and she's like

no and he's like pay attention look at

me do you know me and she's like no

I don't

and then after a couple minutes she's

like oh I do recognize him he's been he

was like at the cafe where my mom and I

had lunch he was I think he might have

been the same guy that was parked across

the street from the house yesterday like

I do recognize him but I don't know from

where and then he like pulls his shirt

up and shows her a gun and he's like

just remember that you don't know me and

she's like

what what right like hard left how did

we get here and she's like I remember

feeling that way about repeat right

we're just like it just like suddenly

happened at the end yes and you're like

oh we went from six to midnight so fast

right like everybody's [ __ ] getting

stabbed and shot and [ __ ] how did we get

here yes so she's like convinced she's

about to die she's like obviously he's

gonna kill me and I never got to tell

Leif that I love him and like what's

gonna happen to my mom like she's doing

all those like final moments thoughts

but then the guy like gets in the car

and turns around so she like runs to the

window to get a look at the car and sees

that the front end is a little smashed

up

it's the guy who hit her she like puts

it all together

and she's about to run out to look at

the license plate and then she's like no

dummy there are cameras out there

remember don't go outside the guy has a

gun she's like smart I'm having a good

moment where I'm listening to myself and

not getting shot

um there was a tick tock a long time ago

that made me die laughing where this

girl was talking about she's like yeah

she's like you know what I really

learned from

black tick tock she's like is that

Caucasian curiosity will get you killed

and she's like what is it with the false

bravado of us white people out here who

like you hear a sound in the woods and

you're like I should go investigate and

I mean [ __ ] you should absolutely not

investigate mind your own business like

your Caucasian curiosity will get you

killed it will and that's what I'm where

she's like oh maybe my Caucasian

curiosity should not be my True North in

this moment correct yeah

what it does do for her she doesn't she

doesn't run out she calls the cops the

cops show up they're investigating and

life shows up like busts in the door and

he's like

baby why didn't you call me why didn't

you like what and she's like I texted

you and he said you mean the text where

you said we should talk soonish that

text she's like yeah yeah and he's like

the only reason I know is because your

mother called me and told me to get home

ASAP so here I [ __ ] am what the hell

is going on and so she's like I just

wanted to tell you like I'm so sorry

about last night I shouldn't have I

shouldn't have done that that was really

weird and I love you and he's like

what

and he she's like what I can admit when

I'm wrong and he's like no no the second

thing what the [ __ ] and she's like oh

yeah I love you and he's like okay I

love you too

so is that the end of the book just

about so then she's like I'll feel

better when they arrest the guy because

they knew who he is so they go out and

grab him they arrest him

um and then

um they both declare their love very

sweet and then in the epilogue this is

so she woke up on balance Valentine's

Day so this is Valentine's Day a year

later and

um she has like decorated the whole

apartment with like rose petals it's

very romantic she's again done her hair

and makeup and put on a fancy dress

waiting for life to get home and when he

does he's like what did I forget it did

I forget something like

what an anniversary or something or like

what is happening right now and she's

like I just wanted to

I just want it to look nice and he's

like okay like what is happening right

now this feels like a trick and it is

because she like gets him champagne and

stuff like that and then she's like

pregnant no no she's like hey so

um I called your mom today

um because I love you so much and um

asked for your for your hand and for her

permission and blessing

um to propose so do you want to get

married and he's like what

what right he's like baby you you told

me you don't ever want to get married

again and she's like I know but I

changed my mind and he's like

are you sure you're not doing this like

just to make me happy and then she

starts freaking out like oh no he didn't

really want to get married

um and she's like he's like why do you

why is your face doing that like why are

you so anxious right now and she's like

cool because you haven't said yes and

he's like well obviously the answer is

yes I just want to make sure that like

this is really what you want because I'm

just happy being with you however I can

and she's like this is what I want and

then they agreed to get married and

that's it that's the end

so question about the dude who hit her

yeah

who was stalking her apparently but like

there was no other mention of him

throughout the book where it's like not

like she's like not that threat of like

oh that guy looks Vaguely Familiar I

thought I saw him when I was out with my

mom at lunch like there's no so she's at

lunch with her mom and she's like oh

that guy looks like he's checking out my

mom good for her like there was that

moment and then there was like

um that car parked across the street

from the apartment's weird huh but like

it was not a full thing of like okay

like I see that guy that guy's giving me

weird energy or like none of that it's

like really not a trail to follow no not

especially

it sounds cute it was cute it was cute

life's really cute like his energy is

adorable their interactions are very

sweet

um yeah it's cute read

and the story is something else

because like what that story went on

some Journeys yeah

yeah it both Feels Like A lot happened

and not a lot happened that's how I felt

when I was outlining it so like we

talked about before we started recording

today I was like I don't know how this

review is gonna be because like

I remember enjoying the book but then

when I went to outline it I was like

there's not like a lot here

but what are we using as our rating

hmm

I don't know

Comas doesn't feel like it would be

appropriate

Twilight books

those are some long books they are some

long books

yeah

those are

not sure so are we is Edward Cullen

Edward Cullen how many Edward Collins

how many Bella swans

let's do Edwards why not because Ed Oh

Yeah from the first book yeah brother Ed

from repeat

that's two Edwards okay so Edward

Collins

um I would give it like

I'm gonna say seven out of ten because

it was an enjoyable read but there are

definitely some plot holes in it that

are like

um

what but with the number of plot holes

seven is generous higher than I expected

I assumed you're gonna go like 5.5 or 6

out of 10 if we were going with a 10. I

was thinking six and a half and round it

up because I it yeah it was enjoyable

but there were some moments where you're

like uh

uh like

I think we can say six and a half we'll

say six and a half of a glittery vampire

it's fine top half bottom half top half

left half left half

fair enough I'm gonna do straight

straight vertical Center yeah you get it

I do yeah so six and a half sparkly

Edward Collins Edward Cullen's in the

summertime

standing in the Sun and standing on some

um let us know how many summertime

Edward Collins

you would rate this book if you've read

it or how many you would rate it

from just listening to Hannah's review

of it yeah

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yes and I will pass all of those to

Hannah if it's a train wreck I'll pass

it to Hannah if you're like it's

actually my favorite book I'll read it

okay listen

I got one of our last recommendations

yeah you did it was bad I read it and I

was like I need to not take one for the

team next time it's time to share the

wealth with Hannah you're right it's my

turn so I wasn't just trying to be

shitty and be like give the bad books to

Hannah but I just like needed a break

that's totally understandable I got it

yeah so if there's anything in

particular you want me to review please

feel free recommend share with us

oh I know you're not

everyone else no I'm not like I will

still I'll read other things that's fine

I just really felt like that needed to

be clarified

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